small gathering..

hmm..well..
met v Irene few days ago on Tue..
ha..
she has become thinner and prettier..
n me, irene, vivian n suang had 4 ppl's bbq..
weird right?
y bbq v 4 ppl?
ha..i oso dunn y..
bt it ws quite fun..

seeing hw irene starts d fire..
seeing hw vivian becoming a "mother" chasing her dog..scolding it 4 becomin naughty...
seeing hw Suang is filling food into her mouth n saying tat tis is her 1st time nid 2 bbq food stuff herself..bla bla bla...

it was fun actually..
bt kinda wasted cz we were bz eating and din really snap much pic..hmm...
n din talk much too.
haiz..
i miss d pillows talk those day...

guess tat suang is too pretty..
n her beloved dear came n pick her earlier..
din get to take d pic of 4 of us..
so..
its left 3 of us...

bt we din talk much too..
i dunno whether its bcz of we are too tired?too hot?
ok la..i admit one of d reason is bcz i gt abit of bz sms-ing la..haha~~
n we were bz having ice cream..hehe...

bt v lots of picx..
o ya..forgotten bout Vivian's beloved son "leng lui" toy toy~~
haha~~

hopefully d Hui Yee wont missed d next gathering..
n tis time i hope for one whole night of pillow talks..hee~~

Starts to MAKAN~~

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Toy Toy 抢镜头


irene helping us 2 put d chicken wings..cz all of us dun wanna dirty our hand..haha

Vivian feeding her "son"..你一口我一口~ ha~

preparation...







~Me+ Irene Darling~


~Me & vivian sweetie...~


My Best Best Evil twins..
d one i love d most....



the star of d day...Toy tOy~

every1 wants to take picx v it..haha





(sure ur wil b curios..eh..u nt scare of dogs one meh..haha..tis is dunno after hw many pic..n d only one tat "looks" better..lolz..)
see This:...d preparation part............................for me 2 dare 2 carry toy toy..

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makes me remember d "triplets" og Aya Aji..hha

Funny~~~

金玉良言

• Save water. Shower with your girlfriend.

要節約用水，和女友一起洗澡。

• Love the neighbor. But don't get caught.

愛你的鄰居，不過別讓她老公抓到。

• One should love animals. They are so tasty.

每個人都應該熱愛動物，牠們是如此美味。

• 「Your future depends on your dreams.」 So go tosleep.

「現在的夢想決定著你的將來」所以還是睡覺吧。

• Behind every successful man, there is a woman.And behind every unsuccessful man, there are two.

每個成功男人的背後，都有一個女人。每個不成功男人的背後，都有兩個。

• Love is photogenic. It needs darkness to develop.

愛情就像照片，需要黑暗來培養。

• Children in backseats cause accidents. Accidents in backseats cause children.

後排座位上的小孩會生出意外，後排座位上的意外會生出小孩。

• Every man should marry. After all, happiness is not the only thing in life.

每個男人都應該結婚，畢竟快樂不是生活中唯一的追求。

• The wise never marry， And when they marry they become otherwise.

聰明人不結婚，一旦結婚就不聰明了。

• 「Work fascinates me.」 I can look at it for hours！

「工作好有意思耶！」我可以盯著看上好幾個小時(發呆)

• 「Hard work never killed anybody.」 But why take the risk？

「 努力工作不會死的！」不過何必冒那個險呢？

• Success is a relative term. It brings so many relatives.

成功是相對的，他帶來很多親戚。

• Never put off the work till tomorrow what you can put off today.

別等到明天再拖延，今天就拖延吧。

• There should be a better way to start a day than waking up every morning.

應該有比在早上醒來更好的方式開始新的一天。

• Money is not everything. There's Mastercard & Visa.

鈔票不是一切的，這世上還有信用卡。

• A dress is like a barbed fence. It protects the premises without restricting the view.

服飾就像鐵絲網，它保衛了領土，但不妨礙視線。

• God made relatives; Thank God we can choose our friends.

神決定了誰是你的親戚，感謝上帝在選擇朋友方面，給我們留了餘地。

• When two's company， three's the result!

兩個人作伴，結果就變成了三個人!

• The more you learn, the more you know, The more you know, the more you forget. The more you forget, the less you know. So why bother to learn.

學得越多，知道得越多；知道得越多，忘記得越多；忘記得越多，知道得越少。幹嘛費個 勁去學？

tml is d "officially date" for study week..
i jz dun understand..
y time really flies...
pop..
in a blink of eyes..
its evening nw..
shit...
wat sub i've finish..
NONE...
haiz..
its THE END OF THE WORLD again~~~

random..

Study week is coming....
yet..
the mood is not here..
n i'm stil wondering..
shud I?
Shud I go bac home n come bac 4 study week?
haiz...
y m i owez like tat?
haiz..
owez doin last min work..
owez relying on ppl..
owez cant make my own decision...

bt..
i'm lucky...
lucky to hav frens like d Xiao Zha Bor Gang 2 nag me..
lucky to hav "mum" like jessica 2 nag me..

ha..
it seems like i'm borned 2 b nag..haha..
bt..i'm kinda enjoy it..haha~~

It's really Time to start study~~

"StuDy~~~~~~"
o ya..
CS had receive d box of gifts..
n i'm glad that he likes it...
haha..
sorry bro.. tat we cant make it to UUM..
bt..
hopefully its d only thg we can giv..
hopefully u enjoy ya..
n as for Ting Yi..
sorry for not turning up on ur birthday celebration tat day..
really sorry..
promis tat it wont b next time..

phoned to Chai Yan tat day n had a talk..
n..
i Miss her..
alot....
she's d one taught me 2 face life circumstances optimistic attitude..
she's d one taught me 2 b more mature...
she's d one owez there...although she's vy quiet...
i really miss d Matrik days....

when i was doin CS's Pic..
seeing bac all d photos..
flashing bac our memories..

especially..
d study week is coming soon..
makes me miss every1 badly...

haiz..
bt life still goes on right?
we nid 2 look forward n b strong v d memories i hav..
no use 2 hold on on wat has change...

d gals who share the crazy study week for u wont b d same..
n in fact...
eventhough we r nw gathered by..
there's like a gap among us..
n i bet every1 do feel it too..
jz..
we r all good pretenders...
i miss Irene n Vivan...
Irene is soOo far away frm me..yet...
she's d one who's owez there for me... n i noe it well..
Vivian is soOo near..
bt...we r like too bz v our own activities..haiz..yet..she'll owez b d 1 i go to whn i cant take it any more..bt thn..it seems i'm able 2 handle stuff myself..
wondering shud i ask her out for Baskin Robin tis 31st Oct...

Hui Yee..
haha..
our mum since matrik..
really thx 2 her..
otherwise i cant imagine hw messy my uni life wil be..haha~~


i've been eating non stop these days..
n i dunno y..
my face is getting rounder and rounder..
n i'm bac 2 d status where i'm really as round as a ball..
argh!!
HELP!!
bt i jz cant resist food~~~~~~

k la..
it's time for dinner..haha..
ciaoz~~

pls..
who ever c tis blog..
pls be kind enuf 2 remind me :

to limit my FB time!!
to control my Diet!!
to stop sleeping!!

and d most important~~

TO STUDY!!!

no idea on hw m i starting my tis blog..

bt..
its true..
everythg is over...

"F.R.I.E.N.D.S"
is d definition for us...

dunno hw 2 describe my tis feeling..

kinda "ke xi"..
kinda "sad'..
cz all tis ended so fast..

bt..
to an wei myself..

we r stil FRIENDS....

.....

i have been scolded o mayb nagging for one whole day
for being stupid...
for letting go u..

i jz wonder hw u bribe them without meeting them..
until all of them who knows bout tis jz shake their head and "haiz.." n say..
u wasted such a good guy..

did i actually make d wrong decision?
Ah Xian told me not to regret with any decision i made..
n did i..

no..
no i think so..
at least i'm much more comfortable with the situation nw..
we stil sms..
we stil keep in touch...
and the most important is..
we r still best frens...

Ah Tuck, Ah Xian, Ah Shan r saying tat
it wont end such easy and fast...
n i shud hold on it..
shud i?

yet..
i'm jz too busy v my finals nw..
jz let time be d decision maker...

listened bac 2 d song "Lucky"..
n hw i hope it wil happen in my life..
but.....
i'm happy with wat i am and wat i have now...


there's no such thg as "If"...

x noe wat to blog actually after last9 's blog...
jz.
somethg is missing..
n i'm nt use 2 it nw...
diff feelings r inside me..
x really felt relief...
x really felt "phew~"
there's somethg..

i can smile in front of others telling them that i'm soOo enjoying my single life nw...
bt to me...
i dunno wat i actually feel...
sad?
nt so..
happy?
nt so...
jz..
i noe..somethg is missing.....

n i'm d only one 2 blame..
sry 4 making tis so complicated..

n it's true tat wat shan's say..
Scorpio's gals r mend 2 hurt ppl..
we r selfish in the relationship..
all we think is bout ourselves..without knowing hw hurt is it..

n i admit..
i've been selfish..
i've been troubling u..
i've been using out all of ur patient...
i've been distracting ur focus..
and i admit...
i've been So selfish all this while..

"sorry " is d only word i can say....

no more rushing 2 get some1 special..
enjoying my life nw..

Game Over~

林峰 - 爱不疚
曲:郑智伟
词:张美贤


收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱 猜到没有
愉快玩笑后 能全然退后 你 开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了 你听到后或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然后就放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够



遥远是宇宙 静静在背后 去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够

放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有
sorry..
is d only thg i can say...
giving u hope..
n crushing it v my vy own words..

its hard 2 say hw i feel nw..
no feel?
actually i felt somethg..
jz..
i dun understand wat is tat feeling..

i really tried..
n..i'm kinda tired for finding the so call feeling..
i noe tat u r suffering too..

n to b honest..
i'm glad tis ended..
n i'm glad we r both stil frens...

sometimes, fren last even longer..
n i'm glad..
we stil can b frens....

no worries..
u'll b my best fren....

n u put a smile on my face after we hav our talk bout ending our situation saying that : u wil become the best friend that will bu shuang when I got Bf next time..

haha~~
really.....
n i'm kinda glad tis is over...
n hope tat thgs like tis wont happen anymore..
n sorry for all d words that hurt u...
n sorry for wasting ur time..

stupidity...

lolz..
hav been blogging all d -ve sides of me recently..

its time 2 blog somethg else..

can ur imagine..
hw stupid m i?
lol..n its nt d 1st time happening such stupid me..
lolz..

case 1 :
Msg 1 : hey...hw's d present 4 hui yee? wat bout celebration?
msg sent ~ Hui Yee 014..
(lol...was suppose 2 send d msg 2 dolphin n suang...)
Reply frm Hui Yee : I wan present..bt lazy 4 celebration..
me : Speechless..................................


case 2 :
Msg 1 : shit..too many picx of CS..i wanna make picx 4 him le..hw 2 make wo?
msg sent ~ Chong Sing 014..
(lol...was suppose 2 send d msg2 Hui Yee...)
CHong Sing called : "hey stupid..i wan d pic tat i look nice and thin.....
me : Speechless.............................................................


lolz..
hw can some1 b such blur??
i wonder..
bt..
tat's d only time i feel i'm d real me..
whn talking v CS on phone..while he's keep reminding hw stupid m i....
whn telling Hui Yee bout how stupid m i...

LUv u Guys SooOo MUCH!!

it's time to let go...

hav been cold for quite some time..
felt nothg..
nt a sense of happiness..
nt a sense of sadness..
nt a sense of disappointment ..

NOTHG...

I'm NUMB...


i felt emptiness inside me..
i'm scare of myself..
being cold..
I dunno myself...
i dun understand myself...
I'm losing myself....

yet..
tis time..
i went through all this alone....
nt a single emotion spread out to any1...
i may complaint..
i may mention..
bt who?
who really know wat i feel?
NOBODY...

n i realise..
i hav really grown up..
i can solve my pro myself...
i can b my own listener...
i can b my personal counselor..

but..
should i b happy v d changes of me....

No more becoming a burden for others..
No more bringing my emotions to others..
No more showing black face to d others..
No more being sensitive..
No more showing my hot temper..

Izzit it a good change?
Izzit it a brand new start?
Izzit it a better me?

Yet..somethg is missing..
Somethg important..
Somethg..which i dunno wat is it..


i Love hanging out v frens..
I love sharing with frens..
Frens were once the priority in my life..
wat bout now??

i dun really noe actually...
I dun really care actually..
I dun really mind actually..

Plans,entertainment,o any other thg else which last time was my priority,no matter hw busy m i,i'll stil join r nw nothg for me..
I can jz x join if it crash v some other thg..
I can jz stay in da room alone nw without any feeling..
I m comfortable by being forgotten..by being neglected..


slept quite late these few days..
doin last min work..
facebook-ing..
marketing proposal...
being awake alone..
i started thinking..
think..

is there somethg wrg with me?
why..
why i feel nothg..

i can laugh like nobody business in front every1 although to me its nt funny..
i can pretend i'm stil close to u..although we all noe tat we r nw far apart..
i can act nothg whenever some1 ask hw r u?
i can ask d others to concern bout d others...

tis is nt a gd thg...

n i started to tell myself..
its time 2 let go...
its time 2 find d true me..
its time 2 get bac d optimistic me..
its time 2 b +ve...
its the time now..........


special thx to shan,xian, lobak, d "xiao zha bo" gang, n him..when i'm down..
thx 2 xie jiao..which let me still believe in frenship...especially CS...
thx...

blur...

it's almost 6.
yet..
I'm stil awake...

hav shut my heart down..
started being cold..
and even..
i felt nothg bout all d stuff tat shan told me...

finally..
i m nw cold..

yet..
had a long long talk v hui teng...
was shock..
i thought i'll b d one whose tears wil b rolling down my cheeks...
yet...
i felt nothg...
n suddenly i found out..
izzit really good for being cold?

n at that moment..
NO!!

at tat moment..
i was suppose to felt touched..
knowing what they actually did..
what they actually planned...
what do I really meant to them...
yet...

i was like x feel..

it's really x gd..
i'm suppose 2 choose to forgive and forget...

both parties are to blamed..
nt only them..

and ya...
i shud b d one who b d one who gt blamed d most..
n i admit myself for being -ve, sensitives, emotional, showing black face....
really SORRy~~

i jz really hope tat everythg wil b fine...
n i'll b bac myself...

i nid more time...

Lucky

Jason Mraz — Lucky lyrics

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

sry..
sry for hurting u with such ways..
sry for saying those words to u...
sry for making both of us suffer..

thx..
thx for waiting me..
thx for leading me..
thx for letting me realize tat i'm nt alone..

promise..
u'll b d 1st 1 i go to whenever thgs happen...
i wont jz leave u aside forgetting who r u 2 me..
i'll try 2 make thgs work out..

thx for hurting me...

I wanna say...

thx..
thx for hurting me...
thx..
thx for giving me d chance to grow up...
thx..
thx for letting me noe...wat does d true friendship mean..
thx...
thx for letting me noe...i'm jz like a piece of shit in ur eyes..

for d pass few days..
my world was lie turning up side down...
everythg was in a mess..
my friendship, my relationship..
everythg..
until i even started to believe tat ..
i'm jz mend to b alone..

there's nothg such as true friendship in the reality...
no matter hw u take them as...
no matter hw u see them as...
they feel nothg..
all ur efforts r jz like a cold jokes made by an idiot clown jz to brighten up ur days...

suppose to hav a great time at Gan's house the other day..
yet..
i din enjoy it at all..
ya.
mayb shan is right...
durin d whole night...
who is there to concern I'm no more bein noisy..
who is there to ask...r u ok?
who is there for me?

ya..
u can say tat..
i'm an adult..
n i shud b more mature..
stop being such emotinal...
stop relying on friendship...

bt..
those who knows me..
friendship is such an important element in my life..
is it tat support me when ever i'm down..
is it to hold me on whn i'm giving up..
is it tat brighten up my day..

was blaming myself for nt being updated..
was blaming myself for being emotional..
was blaming myself for showing black face..
was blaming myself for making gang breaking into two parts..
in the pass few days...
I suffer..
suffer for blaming myself...

Yet..
thgs changes whn i noe somethg frm Shan...
n..
only i realize..
hw NOT important r we to them...
to them..
we are JUST NOTHING bt a clown...

some1 they can forget whn they r having so much fun..
some1 they never think of whn they r enjoying..
some1 jz like a stranger for them..

bt..
i admit..
it was my fault tis time..
for goin out for ice cream without waiting 4 them...
yaya..
n letting them hav an excuse for din even let us noe where they went...


hw many times i've told myself for being COLD..
hw many times i've told myself jz let it be...
hw many times i've told myself to kan kai dian..
hw many times i've lie to myself..
thgs wil b alright...
thousands and thousands of times..

and i'm so cold nw..

after being alone in da room..
nt knowing where d others went..
i stay awake til almost 4am..
yet..
i'm all alone..

seeing shan putting so much effort in letting me noe..
there's true frenship..
seeing her hw she is hurt by nw..

ya..
shan..
u r right...
we hav ourselves...
we hav both of us...
i'll b there for u..
owez...

ya..
HY.
u r right..
i gota stop taking such simple thg so serious...
whn i stil hav xie jiao with me.....