聆听者

从来没有想过，自己也会有安静得甚至被人家忽略的一天……
吓到吧~
原来，陆宇盈也会有低调，安静的时候……

“聆听者”
是我刚刚扮演的角色……

有不耐的眼神出现吗？我不晓得……
只知道，在我周围的人都能感觉到我的“闷”……
而我，
也终于知道了，原来至少10人的聚会，也会有小组的出现…
各谈各的，而我，却显得有点格格不入……

不晓得为什么会有这种感觉，
是“错觉”吗？
还是自己的mindset…
知道自己本来都不属于那‘gang’ 的…
所以也懒得去找话题，懒得吹水…

刚刚的聚会，也是我回来那么久，第一次喝的那么短的时间…
或许，沉默是金，与话不投机半句多是我的conclussion 吧~

扮演着“聆听者”的我，刚才听了不下十次：
“你跟怡温怎样了？”
给有看我的部落格的大家…
我再次向你们说。。。
“我和怡温没有关系，谢谢'关心'…”
哈哈~

p/s : 得空还是可以找我出来喝茶的~我还是会出来，也会和大家一样吹水的…

No Boundaries

Kris Allen - No Boundaries -
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever
If you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

Coz hear I am — still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

Stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don’t know where’s the future’s heading
Nothings gonna bring me down
I jumped every bridge
I risked being safe but i always arise
I always arise

So here i am still holding on

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

With Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
Yeah There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

Fall in Love v tis song...ha...

handsome guy, nice song..

here goes Kris Allen, the American Idol 2009....

...

wasnt in mood tis few days..
doin nothg at home..
segamat is really a asmall town..
i dun even noe who 2 find to go out yumcha..
only durin weekends..
whn Han Sion o Jia hen r bac, thn i'll hav my programmes..
haiz..
life is bored...

my sucks pointer keep coming across my mind..
i feel like giving up sometimes..
Study hard doesnt mean anythg..
there's nothg as the more u do, the more u gain..
that is only rubbish..

haiz..
d house is in a mess..
feel like cleaning it up..
bt dunno where 2 start..i'm so lazy 2 move...
my novels r everywhere..
in the toilet..beside d staircase..beside me...
i dun even hav a proper place 4 them..lolz..

argh!!!!
i dun even noe wat i wan nw..
ish..
mayb i shud really go 4 another acc course to fill in my time...lolz...

心灰意冷

jz gt my result recently..
it was really my worst nightmare...
never in my life i get such result..
failing in Add Maths for form4 n form 5 two years straights never even let me felt such pain..
I hardly describe wat i'm feeling nw...
d disappointment...

compare v d effort i put in my 1st sem..
it was so much difference..
recalling wat i did durin last sem study week..
finished half of d study week reading novels...
started 2 touch my books on d 4th day..
.bt tis time??
i din really read any novel...
all i did was..
pass yr..study...tutorial..
yet..
wat kinda shit result i hav???

haiz...
really 心灰意冷tis time...

种瓜未必得瓜。。

Study doesnt bring u result!!

jz stop wasting ur time 2 study ba...

random

since i've nt updated my blog for quie some time..
hmm..
gonna blog wat hav done pass few days..

life after exam was bored...
came bac Segamat..
yumcha n went shopping v mum only..

o ya...
Chong Sing came to segamat two days b4..
din meet him for 1 sem dy..ha..
great 2 c him..haha..

soOo long time tat i nearly forgotten tat he's d gao diao type..lolz..
really kena bomb by him..

Last night..
after Nanyang..
we was like stuck..dunno where else to go..
really realize tat Segamat is a SMALL TOWN v no entertainment.lolz..
so..we brought CS to Nirwana to sing k..lol...
(p/s : i miss Gardens Redbox, SS2 K Box..)
swt Cs..he can even sing ppl's song frm our "box"..bomb!!

after tat..
on our way hunting 4 supper...
kena bomb by him again..
he started pressing yee woon's hon..
started wanna shout out of d window..
really pengsan...
it's middle of the night and we were at housing area...

d guess wat??
end up..
we went 4 McD..
lolz..

he was even gao diao there..
haiyo...CS a CS..
i'll surely miss d feeling, d noisy environment tat u've giv me...
his pikachu game sound was all over McD..
luckily it was midnight..
n luckily there's nobody that noe me n big head..
lolz..
otherwise..
we were like.so damn paiseh le.
lol.
i even think tat the Coke he drank make him drunk.
he even went n kick McD dustbin..
OH MY GOSH!!

really really gao diao..
haha...

bt..
deep in my heart..
i somehow..understand tat tat is his way 4 expressing his feeling..
since he's goin bac 2 JB d next day...

CS...take k ok??
i'll surely miss u..
jz tat...CAN U PLS DUN B SO GAO DIAO NEXT TIME??
especially in a small kampung as u say..lolz...

100 truths (tagged by hong chun)

swt...finished my final..nw...busy finishing d taggeds..lolz...sry guys 4 dragging ur tag soOo long ya...

001. Real Name:Loke Jee Yeng
002. Nickname(s): Ah MA
003. Age: 19 not yet 20
004. Horoscope: Scorpio
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: Convent & 培基幼稚园
007. Middle School: 昔华小学
008. High School: 昔华中学
009. College School: University Malaya..can a??nt college wo...
010. Hair colour: 黑但游了泳后有点巧克力色了……
011. Long or Short: short
012. Loud or Quiet: 99% Loud
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Phone
015. Health Freak: hmm....ok i guess...
016. Drink or Smoke: 不烟不酒不嫖不赌
017. Do you have a crush on someone: NOPE~
018. Eat or Drink: 废话，有人可以不吃或不喝或不吃不喝？？？
019. Piercings: 有…even plan to hav another 1...d sixth 1...haha...
020. Tattoos: 等下没有家回
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social
022. Righty or lefty: Righty
023. First piercing: whn i was..hmmm 6 yrs old??
024. First relationship: Nobody wants me..wuwuwuw~~~ha..lolz
025. First Best Friend: Wong Kang Wen
026. First Award: 一年级讲故事比赛安慰奖
027. First Kiss: i think i gave it 2 my mum..hehe...
028. First Pet: forgotten it's a chicken o a turtle..haha..
029. First Big Vacation: went 2 Thailang gua...
030. First Love at first sight: Not at all..ahah...
031. First Big Birthday: i'm too young to hav1..hehe...
032. First Surgery: Nope...
033. First sport you joined: 赛跑？不过现在太重了，跑不去……=.="
034. Orange or Apple juice: Apple
035. Rock or Rap: I dun like both...
036. Country or Screamo: country
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Christina Aguilera
039. Night or Day: Night
040. Sun or Moon: moon
041. TV or Internet: More to novels..lolz..TV oso..
042. Playstation or xbox: nope....
043. Kiss or hug: both
044. Iguana or turtle: 都不要
045. Spider or bee:也都不要
046. Fall or spring: Fall
047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball: soccer
049. Eating: everythg..especially those spicy 1..hehe...
050. Drinking: 大多都喝
051. Excitement level: dunno..i get excited easily..hehe..
052. I'm about to : try to put down some weight...lolz...
053. Listening to: song
054. Plan for today: watch finish 1 season of hero..
055. Waiting for: dinner
056. Energy Level: dunno wo...
057. Thinking of someone : NOPE~
058. Want kids?: want
059. Want to get married?: of cz...
060. When?: Whn i found some 1 willing 2 marry me at d age of..hmm..28?
061. How many kids do you want: 2 wil b d best...
062. Any name on the mind: ya..
063. What do you want to do: go Sing K
065. Mellow future or wild: mellow,不狂野
066. Something you would never try: hmm...try killing myself?
067. When do you want to die: whn i think it's time to..
068. Lips or Eyes: ???
069. Romantic or Funny?: Funny is my style..d romance part..let my future bf do ya...
070. Shorter or Taller?: hope to b taller...bt..
071. Protective or Caring?: 都ok吧应该
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Spontaneous,不做作
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: 应该nice appetite
074. Sensitive or Loud?: Loud
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Single
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: hesitant..
077. Muscular or normal: Normal...i'm low profile..
078. Kissed a stranger: wont!
079. Broken a bone: Nope...
080. Lost glasses or contacts: ya..ha..i'm d blur type..haha...
081. Ran away from home:Not at all...haha...
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence : nope...n i hope it wont happen...
083. Killed somebody: =_=
084. Broken some one's heart: gt gua...
085. Had your heart broken: ya..by somethg called "friendship.."
086. Been arrested:Nope~
087. Cried when someone died: ya..my dearest grandpa..
088. Liked a friend more than a friend:ya...every1 has their favourite fren...
089. Yourself: Ok gua..
090. Miracles: My 1st sem result in UM..n..i'm hopping another 1 for my 2nd sem..haiz...
091. Love at first sight: Nope..
092. Heaven:a place where every gd thg happen..
093. Santa Claus: I hope there's really one..
094. Tooth Fairy: nope....
095. Kiss in the first date: who knows wat will happen in da future?
096. Angels: if she is here 2 make my wish come true...i'll surely welcome her..
if she's here 2 bring me away..i wil run away frm her...
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? : Nope...
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? : HAPPY!!
099. Do you believe in God? : Yup...
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.


the 10 person i tag...
hehe...

Chong Sing....dun say i din tag u ya..ble...
Nik...tis 1 easier..wont take u soOo much time..hehe...
Hui Yee...
King Fong...
WenJi...

like there's no 10 person 4 me 2 tag le..
tat's all...ha..
x goin 2 tag Vivian and Irene..cz they sure say it's a stupid tagged...lolz....