Thursday, April 30, 2009

..Tagged..(by Vivian..)

so so so sorry dear..
i've drag ur tag since...hmm...
2 o 3 months ago?ha...
sry ya...
since i m done v my final..
here it goes...

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with 16 random things, habits or goals about you. At last, choose five people to be tagged. Listing their names and the reason u choose them :)

1) I hate being forgotten..
every time when i found out there is a simple gathering, simple outing..o jz even a yumcha which wasn't plan earlier...yet...i'm nt ask to go...i feel sad n disappointed..ya right...some might noe tat i'm busy at tat moment, so they decided nty to call me...bt..i jz somehow dun like this kinda feeling....at least like u ajak me...let me noe tat i'm stil a part of u all...and tat's enuf...enuf for me 2 feel safe..

2) I can SWIM..
Can u guys believe that...somebody v my size, can really actually swim??well..even me myself oso dun really believe it...although my speed is nt as fast as the others.....it was my 1st time getting so many prizes in a swimming competition in UM...SUKMUM...

(yeah..i gt 5 pingat durin SUKMUM..each pingat given together v a tiger..)

(okok..no GOLD...bt..it's enuf 4 me..hehe....)


(UM swimming pool)


(every1 hav our prize..thx 2 Raymond for all d hard work to train us...)


(Our 4th College swimming team)



(our outing 2 WenJi's house together as a team..)

kinda sad actually...as i'm d only 1 in MASUM tat din get any prizes...

(the UM swimming Team)

(went for competition at USM)

(was forced to jump down the diving pool...bcz..gt other swimmer frm other Uni that overtake me..)

(The UM team on the bus...on our way bac 2 UM..)
bt...at least..i gt frenship...*winks*~

3) I LOVE CHILI
As every1 who knows me well...sure noe tat..Chile is my life...some of my fren even say that, Chili is my main ingredient for my every meal..i cant barely eat thg without chili...
some say..chili can keep fit..bt..look at me...dun believe tat eating chili can make u slim...lolz...



4) The friendship I was kinda "disconnected"...
Feel sad whenever i think of this..as...for my Art class fren..i'm glad to hav u all...as..for science class...really hope that we r stil in contact..sometimes..i jz dun understant my our frindship is like kinda fade away after switching to Art..even nw..i'm like know nothg bout sc class fren's updates..i miss those days whn hanging around v Hui Nee, Jean Ee, Xin Yuan, Mei Yann, Yee Wen....i feel sad whn we meet each other on9, bt there's nothg 2 crap...
Sometimes...whn i look bac to my secondary sch photos...only i noticed that...
i dun hav much pics taken together v them...haiz....sob..emo nw...
Kim Foo, once my "feeling rubbsh bin"..the one who i owez dump all my -ve feelings even feel tat we r disconnected...Some how..i jz dun really believe the phrase "friendship forever"
i miss my nickname "Mary" those days...

5) Don't believe there's such word as "Forever"
when some1 say "I will love you FOREVER" ,
can u really believe it as are u confident that u all wont break up the next day...
when a fren says " I will support you FOREVER",
are you sure that he/she wont back step u one day...
when a fren says "friends FOREVER",
you wont know waht wil happen after ur stop contacting each other for years..u might cant even recognize them when u meet each other.
I don't believe in "forever" as...I know ppl wil change...friends wont last long as time goes...
so..i cherish those who i have noe...i want them to last long..o they might dun even noe hw much they really mean to me...

6) Love "Xie Jiao"
The memory i cherish the most is during my Matriks time...the place where i grow, i meet different ppl from different background..
I met Vivian, Irene..the 1 I worry,care n love the most...
I met Suang..the preetiest 1 v d most "chu lu" act, the 1 who I miss most of the time..
I met Hui Yee..The one i rely the most especially in unversity..
I met Kai Huey, Chi Ching, Cai Yan
..the most hardworking one i noe..the one who taught me hw 2 grow...
I met Siew Yin
..my praticum mate...the one who help me alot in my studies..the gd listener i hav....
I met Chong Sing..the one who taught me about true frenship..the one who put frens on behalf of everythg..the one who i talk to whn i'm moody..the one who phone me after viewing my -ve blogs...the one who set up xiejiao..
I met Ting Yi..the most gentleman guy..the one who keep calling himself Takeshi...ha..
I met Ming Cher..the one who i'll go to when i'm emo..although he's owez bz...n we seldom talk...bt..deep in my heart..he's some1 i'll go to when i nid advice...
I met Kee Jing..my dearest naiba...bcz of him n chong sing..i stil believe in xie jiao..thx for giving me time naiba...thx for all d birthday he planned in UM..thx...he is a vy caring person..
I met Yee Woon..big head..the one who save my matriks result...thx alot to him..a vy vy patient guy who taught me frm the begining to the end...the one who i owez geram with for wasting such a gd brain...
I met wei xiang..my 1st DS son...the 1 v small eyes..the one who is so blur...
I met Yim Chuan..Pika..my 2nd DS son...the one who goes red whnever he is paiseh...
I met Ming wei..the 1st guy v dimples which i luv so much..ha...nt tat kinda luv la..ha...

(the craziest party we ever had...)

(the Dinamika night..)



(the one who give me the nicest memories..)

7) I am quite emo
I somehow..wil have negative thoughts when i'm too free o when i'm sad....i jz dunno why..bt...it's getting better now....no worries..thx 2 CS,HY to be there..whenever i hav such -ve thoughts..




8) I Love my family...
I love my family...they are my pillar of strength...they are the one who i really believe in "forever"...

(the Loke's family..)

(the three of us..)

9) The criteria of my bf...
I jz wonder...why i'm stil single nw??hmm..i'm nt choosy oso ma..haiz..kecewa...bt..nvm..i'm only single n available...bt nt desprate...so..no worries..
the one i want is jz a simple type..he nid nt b handsome..as..i'm nt pretty oso..
i only want one who can really urge me to study, (for the time being, dimples is nt so important)..ha..one who can tahan my temper...one who can tahan my talkative-ness ... one who is smarter than me...one who can talk whn i'm quite...one who is more mature thn me...i even prefer guys who r 大男人主义...dun ask me y..i oso dunno..ha...

10) I hate waiting people...
I cannot wait....if i waited for somebosy more thn 5 o 10 min..sry man...my face tat time wil turn black...if u were askin me 2 go out, yet i gotta wait summore...i cant really describe hw bad mood i'll b tat day..i'm tat impatient type which every1 knows bout it oso..ya..i'm quite sry oso.cz i'm ta deely dally type..i use to get ppl waiting 4 me..bt...sry..i dun wait 4 ppl...ha..paiseh ya for those who had waited me b4...

11) I cherish my UM gang..
thx 2 them..Four Flat Hui Teng a.k.a qizhimeinv, Nik a/p supermariam (the Indian Cat), Shan(the frog), Jessica(Aunty), gui ying (the blur n funniest gal,the one who accompany me during d hard time of final..the one who walk out earlier with me frm the exam hall....), Kang Lee( our nai ma..who owez grumble n grumble..), Lobak, da shao, er shao....they bright up my university life...although the 3rd sem we r x staying in da same hostel...bt hopefully we r stil able to keep in touch...


12) I Hate sweating..
Dont u feel tat it is disgusting to sweat?tat's y i choose swimming...bcz i cant feel my sweat in da water...ha...i cant really tahan sweating..bt i'm d 1 who sweat alot...ish..which makes me gotta bath more thn 3 times a day...I HATE SWEATING!!



13) I LOVE Novels...
I always say tat Novels is my 1st bf n d bathhroom is my 2nd bf...askin me why?of cz bcz i luv them...i can spend alot on novels..which i rather save all my money shooping 4 clothes jz 4 novels...d novels in my house is all around d corner...even me myself oso cant tahan looking at it..haha...i rather look at my novels thn watching movies sometimes...Novels....MY LOVE...haha...

14) My favourite Cousin..
My one and only one cousin bro is Jee Chung...n he's my favorite cousin...hehe...same age v me..bt much more mature..luv to talk v him..sharing my thoughts...he's goin overseas this coming september...i'll surely miss him....


15) I cherish my yumcha gang...
I have 3 gangs of yumcha kaki in Segamat..tat i'll owez contact whn i'm on my way bac frm Kl..my 5F frens...my Segamat Baru kaki...n of cz..d campur aduk gang..ha..ya..we wont cht v each other whenever we on9, we wont sms to each other whn we r free...we din even phone to each other whn there r free calls...a vy weird frenship as..i wont even think of the, whn i'm in my hard times...yet..i cherish them..deep in my heart..they r special...
My 5F frens...Sook Li, Jia Qi, Rui Ling, Hui Leng, Ee Lun, Fei Hu...the one who let me noe tat i'm nt alone whn i 1st switch 2 Arts..
My Segamat Baru Kaki...Kang wen..my best best fren..the 1 who i noe since standard 4..the one who i can really talk non-stop..Han Siong, Pak Siong..the one i noe them since standard 1..the one thet i can hold their hands n walk together like a couple bt there actually nothg between us...Yik Chi..my 1st fren in Art..a vy funny guy which bring joys whenever he's around..Chew Yoke..an opposite me...bt we r stil fren...Cher Shin...the future teacher....my best advisor who really care about me....
My campur Aduk kaki...Jia Hen, Mung Yik, Wei Jie, n Kah Chun...dun really noe hw we started hanging out for yumcha..bt..i really luv d feeling yumcha v them..we can really crap...ha...They hav different thoughts..we share our problems, we talk about issues....i'll surely miss wei jie after he's goin 2 America..

16) My Favorite birthday I ever had..
whn i was 18, my matrik gang gave me a BIG BIG supprise....thx to them..till nw..i can hardly forget what they have did...Luv ya guys...n nt forgetting Vivian too..thx for the most special gift i hav....thx alot..I'll remember the sweetest momment of it...

(the early suprise party)

(the supprise cake)



(they rush up to d gals block...lolz..4th floor summore...)


(and ask me down...make me into Woman in WHITE)
+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+_+

finally...finish doin Vivian's tag..2 more tag to go..omg~
luckily i have 2 months break..ha....

ok..
it's my turn 2 tag nw...
I tag :

+Hui yee...bcz i wanna noe more bout her...
+Hong Chun..bcz he's the one who started calling me "mary"..the few frm SC tat i'm stil contacting with..
+Kim Foo..bcz he was once my feeling rubbish bin n i wan our frenship to b connected...
+Irene..bcz she didnt do Vivian's tag n i wanna noe her more...muacks..
+Nik..bcz i wanna noe my rooomate more..hehe..c..at least i admit u as my roomate le....happy?meow meow meow~~

Monday, April 27, 2009

每一个女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友...


但是,为了什么原因你们没能在一起?
也许他为了朋友之间的义气,不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ,你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造,他没有要你等他。

许你们相遇太早,
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚,
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟,
对方已不再等待

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心,
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起,
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚,
对这个人,你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街,
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人,你口头上会帮他追,
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时,
你会尽你所能的帮他,
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了,
你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友,
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子,
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友,
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的,
但久了,突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心他,
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做他的朋友,
彼此不会吃醋,才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样,
你还是知道,
他永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友,
当他那个特别的朋友,
有什么不好呢?

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢?

很多的感情,
都因为一厢情愿,
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜,
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你,
如果你没有反应,这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去,
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注,
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友,
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的,或许对方不在意,
你们还可以是朋友,但却已经不如从前的好.

希望你们能珍惜身边的人,

可能在这一刻你们不觉得他/她是你生命中最重要的人...

一旦他/她已离你身边而去时,才发觉...

一切都太迟了....

Saturday, April 25, 2009

finish...finished...

jz finish my law paper..
give up on it..
tis is actually d 1st time coming out earlier in d finals....
haiz..

kinda speechless actually....
at least i study more compare v my political science..
tis time...
i left it blank.
haiz..
i jz wonder...
y i'm an econs student, yet i gotta study LAW??!!

useless!!
wat m i goin 2 do v nt even half pail of d Law knowledge?
taking LAw 2 make my result slip ugly!!

dun even hav mood 2 study 4 my statistic dy..haiz...

Finish law...FINISHED me....

life is miserable...

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

ish....

haiz..
life is miserable v finals...
especially whn it's related v LAw MACRO n nw, even PA is driving me crazy..
i jz cant stand anymore...
ish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
Its end of the world!!!

haiz..
i miss those days..
i'm vy vy sure nw..
i really nid a bf who can teach me n urge me 2 study...lolz.....

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

nice day...

jz came bac frm 3rd..
din really study d whole day...jz keep day dreaming..talking only..ha..
really nice day i hav..hehe..

went over Hui Yee's place tis afternoon..so called want 2 study...askin 4 macro..
bt..
end up crapping only..ha..
even went to 8th 2 meet up v suang...
after calling vivian, ha..she came over 8th oso...haha..

it is stil like those days...
me, hui yee, vivian n suang...
miss irene...hmm..
i wonder is she ok over there..
take k ya sweetie...

haiz..
it's 10pm, i dun think i'll b able 2 study today..
so..
can i giv up??

i hate LAW!!

Monday, April 20, 2009

random

well..
my next paper is on Thus..another 2 more days..
so.
i'm stil in mood 2 update my blog..
hmm..
pass two days i was in Hui Yee's house..
hehe...nice nasi lemak i hav over there..ha..yummy..
noisy sis n blur brother she has..
ha...wat a 贤妻良母whn i c her doin housework..
Mr Chew...u r so lucky 2 hav a high EQ, Smart, n nice gal 2 b ur lou por a..lol...
btw..she's stil my beloved..haha..
o ya..
x forgetting bout d cute winnie the pooh pyjamas i bought..hehe..
damn cute le..ahah...,
love it sOoo much..wakaka...

o ya...n d swt Mr Mung Yik..called me at 3.48am jz 2 wake me up 2 study..n giving me d wrog info..
saying tat we r goin 2 Redang on d Mid june, end up..we r goin Ledang on d end of april..swt....
another swt fella...Tee jia hen..swt le u..
lol..accident at Jementah..stil gt time 2 phone me n crap pula..
really relaxing ho??swt..
next time,,better bkful whn driving ya...dun blur blur a...lolz..


jz had my hub etnik paper jz nw..
n went chit cht v Clement at University House after Hub Etnink paper..
haiz..sometimes, i jz dun understand, y pp wil think so far away, whn they haven complete the task in front them...hmm..

was negative pass two weeks..
ti;l nw, no rasa at all.
i think i'm giving up dy gau...haiz..
sienz..
hate exam..haiz....

cant wait for 27th of April 2 come..
i wanna go ice skating..

haiz..
my plan was 2 finishing my macro by today..start my law tml..
n revision Public Admin on Wed...bt end up..sitting at gui ying's room n blogging nw..haha...

p/s : cant wait 2 go swimming at 9.40pm-10.40pm...
ha..nvr try b4 goin swimming at tis time....ha...
yahoo.....

Friday, April 17, 2009

miss xie jiao...

at 1st..
i didnt notice tat hw i rely on xie jiao..
until...tat day durin study week, showing shan my matrik photo..
n suddenly she say..
y m i keep looking at all my matrik pic durin the critical time?
everytime i feel stress i'll b start talking bout xie jiao n showing them all my pic durin matrik time...
hmmm....

suddenly i realise..
hw i rely on xie jiao..
d place i met true frenship...
(nt forgetting d UM gang oso..hehe...)

thx 2 Xie Jiao...4 giving me more time 2 overcome my conflict..
thx 4 being patient..
thx 2 naiba 4 being so kind..
thx 2 Hui Yee n Zhong Xing 4 being such a gd listener..
thx 2 Ming Cher who did nothg...bt i noe whn i nid him, he'll b there..
thx 2 Vivian, Suang, Irene, Kai Huey, Cai Yan, at least, i noe, there's some1 there 4 me 2 miss them....
thx 2 Ah Yao..his xie jiao spirit makes me feel tat xie jiao is stil there..

i miss every1 of them..
especially in tis disaster study week..haiz...
i hate studies!!!

miss u guys.....
jz had a phone called v Ting Yi..
kinda miss his voice actually...hmm..
din c him 4 months..
d last time i saw him is durin his 19th yr old birthday last yr together v cs...
both of them r actually xie jiao's 精神支柱without them...o ya..nt forgetting nai ba, big head n ah yao...
i thunk, our xie jiao bound wil nt b such strong..
i'm glad t hav them in my life..

x forgetting hui yee too..
she's d 1 who giv me d confidence tat, i'm stil in da group...

was in a terrible condition recently..cant really focus in my studies...
keep having nightmares...
wanted 2 cry last 9..

the ppl tat came across my mind..
tat i wanted 2 talk 2...
to share...to express..to dumb all my -ve feelings..

wanted 2 go over n find cher cher..too bad..he's studying oso..
so i called hui yee..
tjx 2 hui yee,,
my beloved listener..
although d stress feeling r stil here..
bt, at tat moment, i really feel so glad 2 hav xie jiao as my gang..

read d xie jiao blog by CS tis afternoon...
i miss every1 of them..
miss those days..
haiz...

vivian...irene...suang..hui yee...
miss ur alot..
miss d video making process..
miss those maggie mee nights..
miss the way ur wake me up.
miss d way Irene masuk ilmu 4 all of us..ha...

take k every1...

Monday, April 13, 2009

argh~~~
where's my mood??
haiz..hui yee...
we gambateh together ba...

Sunday, April 12, 2009

really feel like blogging nw..
fan argh...
dunno hw 2 start my blog....=.="

p/s : finally...i notice tat..i no nid a guy v dimples..i nid some1 who can urge me 2 study...lolz..

Saturday, April 11, 2009

bought tml bus ticket 2 go bac KL...
nw...
i stil wonder, shud i go bac?haiz...dunno le..
can i jz burnt of the ticket n jz stay bac in my home sweet home??

Friday, April 10, 2009

bac home...

yeah...finally..
i'm bac home...
home sweet home...
bt..
where's my mood 2 study?haiz..
stil finding it..
hopefully everythg wil b alright...haiz...
d worst thg in study life, is examination....

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

很有意思的十句话

收过这样的email和msg……
说真的,我很喜欢,也觉得很有意思的十句话……:

第一句


  如果我们之间有1000步的距离
  
  你只要跨出第1步
  
  我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步

(但愿我能找到那个我愿意为他走其余999步的那个“他”,但,目前为此…还是没有……读书先吧……)
  
  第二句
  
  通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
  
  才是真正爱你的人

  
  第三句
  
  付出真心 才会得到真心
  
  却也可能伤得彻底
  
  保持距离 就能保护自己
  
  却也注定永远寂寞

(距离,是必然的,适当的距离只是为了保护自己……这道理,我已经学会了……)
  
  第四句
  
  有时候 不是对方不在乎你
  
  而是你把对方看得太重

(或许这是以前的我吧……把对方看得太重,所以,我学会了保护自己……with my 装傻attitude……)
  
  第五句
  
  朋友就是把你看透了 还能喜欢你的人

(我有这样的朋友吗?谁看透了我?又懂得多少?)
  
  第六句
  
  就算是believe 中间也藏了一个lie

(我依然选择相信,这世界上有纯真的友谊……)
  
  第七句
  
  真正的好朋友
  
  并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
  
  而是在一起 就算不说话
  
  也不会感到尴尬

(nobody came across my mind……sob sob...)

  第八句
  
  没有一百分的另一半
  
  只有五十分的两个人

(我要求不高,只要90分就够了)
  
  第九句
  
  为你的难过而快乐的 是敌人
  
  为你的快乐而快乐的 是朋友
  
  为你的难过而难过的
  
  就是那些 该放进心里的人

(有吗?邪教吗?不晓得~)
  
  第十句
  
  冷漠 有时候并不是无情
  
  只是一种避免被伤害的工具

(有时,并不是我想用言语伤害大家,只是……我想,这是我另一种除了戴着面具,保护自己的方式吧……)

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Goin home..

ya..
d MMU swimming carnival was call off..
kinda sry actually..
cz at 1st our team was like so semangat 2 go..
bt end up..haiz..
sry Mr Lim n especially Clement....

neway..
i'm goin hm tis thurs...yahoo...hehe.....
home sweet home...

Monday, April 6, 2009

haiz...

it seems like i'm stil repeating the same mistake over and over again...
last min work..
i kinda hate it actually..
y m i nt pushing myself in the first place?
y din i start study earlier?
final is in 2 weeks time..
yet..
wat preparation i've done?
nothg!!!

there's even another thg 2 bother..
shud i go bac hm durin study week??
its actually d same 4 me..i guess...
cz i dun really study 4 exam...

yet..
sometimes..
i jz wonder, whn i'm telling the truth tat i'm a lazy gal who din study..y cant they jz believe it?
pls la..
is nt tat i gain anythg if i lie to u guys ok??

STUDY?
ya...i might enjoy study life..
bt definetly not d exam time...

When wil i get my study mood?
it seems like tis "mood" nvr appear in my study life..
pls..
somebody pls push me...

haiz..
I think i shud settle the prob lem 1st..
shud i go bac durin study week??
haiz...
me la..
wat 4 i promise 2 join d swimming competition??
haiz...
y din i listen 2 hui yee's advice..
haiz...
WHY??!!!
haiz.....

STUDY ARr LOKE JEE YENG!!

haiz....

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

wat the !@#$%^&*((*&^%$#@#$%^&
damn ANGRY NOW!!!
WAT THE HELL IS GROUP ASSGMT?!!
SHIT!!
EMAIL ME D ASSGMT AT 11.30PM!!1
SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANGRY!!!!!
ANGRY!!!!