Saturday, August 30, 2008




熟悉的感觉又回来了。。。

之前,都一直认为自己在一班好朋友的圈子里围着转。。
以为自己与他们疏远了。。
没了以往的熟悉感。。
没了以往的话题。。

然而。。
感谢Vivan..
让我把这熟悉的感觉也找回来了。。

昨天。。
从PasarSeni赶回来后。。
与他们一起出来聚一聚。。

去之前心想。。。
会不会像前几次一样,有了那一层隔膜,
会不会有尴尬的情况在出现。。
会不会有没有话题料的悲哀。。
会不会不再熟悉的感觉出现。。

然而。。
很开心。。
彼此交换近日的情况。。
谈着宿舍所发生的东西。。
回忆着以前的趣事。。
聊着所有能来噢的东西。。
熟悉的感觉又回来了。。

在那期间。。
与Vivian的眼神交流。。让我明白一切。。
谢谢你。。
让我知道我并没有失去大家。。
想念你们叫Ah Ma..
想念你们取消我队就我的痴。。
想念你们在我说我低调的时候的不赞同。。
想念我们在一起吃的时候,贴得为我准备另一个汤匙。。

谢谢。。
也感激。。
让我知道。。
我还有你们。。



想念大家一起“抢”火锅的时候。。

































thx for being my fren....

Monday, August 18, 2008

还是输了。。

奥运开办以来。。
马来西亚终于有望要打破冠军荒。。
李宗伟,背负着大马的希望。。在羽球场上与超级丹奋战。。
然而。。
他还是输了。。
而且输得不好看。。

不晓得是否该庆幸我错过了这场决赛。。
没能亲眼看见他的惨败。。
从朋友们口中转述,知道了战况。。
但。。
他已经很棒了。。

李宗伟,加油~
四年后的奥运见~~

Sunday, August 17, 2008

星星之火

女孩 越过小路爬上了山丘
那时的她 还不懂为什麽
萤火虫都不动
停驻在夜空 点亮了小小宇宙
女孩 慢慢长大却还是懵懂
那时的她 还不懂为什麽
大人们能抽空
为失恋喝杯酒 却没空看看星空
不要 不要 不要 忘了做过的梦
天上星星 仿佛听她述说 兴奋地闪烁
我要变成那一颗星星 整夜都亮晶晶
不怕阴暗的黑影 骄傲地闪不停
SHINING SHINING SHINING
亮丽到月儿都妒忌
灿烂的一颗星星 一生也亮晶晶
因为夜归的背影 有了我的指引
SHINING SHINING
勇气就在你手心
女孩 不再单纯却不够成熟
这时的她 虽然懂为什麽
美丽总有哀愁
每当有泪儿流 却回到那个宇宙
女孩 有天将会到哪里出走
哪时的她 总会问为什麽
一个梦那麽重
只希望放弃前 能想起那片星空
不要 不要 不要 忘了做过的梦
天上星星 彷佛听她述说 兴奋地闪烁
我要变成那一颗星星 整夜都亮晶晶
不怕阴暗的黑影 骄傲地闪不停
SHINING SHINING SHINING
亮丽到月儿都妒忌
灿烂的一颗星星 一生也亮晶晶
因为夜归的背影 有了我的指引
SHINING SHINING
勇气就在你手心
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are.
Believe, believe, believe, you are the only star
天上那一颗星星 整夜都亮晶晶
不怕阴暗的黑影 骄傲地闪不停
SHINING SHINING SHINING
亮丽到月儿都妒忌
灿烂的一颗星星 一生也亮晶晶
因为夜归的背影 有了我的指引
SHINING SHINING SHINING
勇气就在你手心

A long time ago,a little girl wanted to find her future.
She went to the mountains and asked the sky"where's my future."
And just then, a little star said"sweety,your future is in your hands."
"Yes,the future is in our hands!"
well..
jz came back hanging v frens..
reach hm @ 3a.m...
luckily was nt lock outside d house.....
hehe...

went 2 "potto" @ Kg Tengah n Tahan..
met sum old frens..
its kinda strange tat we haven meet up for sum time yet, we r stil so close..
i'm really glad 2 hav them v me, as my frens...
they might nt b smart..yet they r d 1 who wont hurt u for their self advantage..
they r straight forward which make me so comfortable v them..
we went out @ 8.30...
din do anythg meaningful..
spent our time in Karaoke...drinking n singing..
sincerely...i din drink ya..cz i cant tahan d smell..

we may nt noe each other for a long time, since they r d 1 I met in my Art stream..
yet,,we r even closer thn my frens frm Sc Stream,,
mayb is "yuen fen" who make us so close...
i really appreciate tis "yuen fen"..

jz wana let them noe....

thx 4 being my fren..

Saturday, August 16, 2008

was editing my frenster profile jz nw...
listened 2 d song"Tear Drops On My Guitar"..
recall bac all d sweet memories in KMJ..
sincerely..I miss them..

though we r in d same Uni hard 2 meet up unless we really plan to..
Vivian is living @ Kolej 1 which is d most far kolej frm mine..yet..we r stil close as last time..
tis make me really really happy..
mayb she doesn hoe hw much she mean to me..
bt...
i love 2 talk 2 her..
listening her pro..
sharing our daily life..
even whn we meet in d library for bout 5 min time,stil it really brighten up my day...

ask me why??
dunno actually....
mayb bcz i miss my Matric life..
I miss every1 is DT4.5..I miss very1 n everythg..
Seeing Vivian makes me feel tat
though we r far away frm each other, bt we r stil best frens..

But...
it's kinda different v others..
i dunno y...
wil it b my problem??
it's kinda hurt whn i c them bt i've no topic 2 crap v them..
i miss those days in DT4.5..
we can talk whole night...sumtimes doin h.work together, having supper, having pillows talk..
yet.
nw....whn i c them..i felt i'm a new fren of them..
being not as close as before,estranged makes me so -ve..
thinking of our frenship is like dying..
bt stil thx 2 nai ba..
thx 4 d gathering he made tat day...
though i wanted them for AN HOUR bt stil...

i'm so happy 2 c them..
yet..
after mixing v them..
i cant find bac d same feeling..
i was so bored..
i was even so happy whn i met my kolej fren...
bad rite??
i dunno y i felt tis way..
i really dunno..n i jz hate tis kinda feeling~~

mayb i'm too gd in pretending..n sumtimes i even fooled myself...
m i really as optimistic as every1 c??
sumtimes even I was confuse by myself..
guess that i'm really a real Scorpio...


really hope tat thgs wil get better.....


Tuesday, August 12, 2008

是我的问题吗??

曾写过一个这样的部落格:

当大家还在同一个圈子时。。

“真奇妙,原本像朋友可以随意聊天的两个人,因为距离的改变,突然就陌生的像不相关,甚至像永远不说话的人一样,我很纳闷,却也无可奈何地接受了。。
后来我知道了,人生很多事都是这样。。
“只是我们必须慢慢接受,以及突然接受的差别而已。。”

-摘自《天明狂歌》-

人与人之间的关系也不就如此。。
当大家还在同一个圈子时,
话题,永远都说不完。。
当大家还在同一个圈子时,
聚会,永远都不会结束。。
当大家还在同一个圈子时,
照片,永远拍不完。。
当大家还在同个圈子时,
“面具”,永远用不上。。
当大家还在同一个圈子时,
“虚伪”,永远不沾边。。

然而。。
这一切一切。。
却在。。
“当大家已不再是同个圈子时”。。
有了改变。。

当大家已不再是同个圈子时,
话题,已经没了共同点。。
当大家已不再是同个圈子时,
聚会,办起来力不从心。。
当大家已不再是同个圈子时,
照片,已成回忆。。
当大家已不再是同个圈子时,
“面具”,保护了我。。

是我变了吗??
我不晓得。。
每一次的分离,我都得带上新的面具。。
每一次的分离,我又学会了保护自己。。
每一次的分离,我的心情是灰色的。。

每一次的分离,都带来了一篇部落格。。
唉。。
是时候乐观点了。。

加油吧~
做回在大家面前笑口常开的陆宇盈吧!


然而,
我想现在的我是带着面具吧。。
没错。。
聚会是去了。。但,受的伤却也更深了。。
当我发现, 以往见到面前,不需要特地找话题,也能聊到天南地北,日夜不分的朋友,在短短的放假之后变得好像刚刚认识的朋友,说话客气,会冷场,不再有那亲切感时。。 我受伤了。。

曾收过一封这样的信息。。
付出真心,才会得到真心,却也伤得彻底。。
保持距离就能保护自己,却也永远注定寂寞。。
该保持距离吗?我不晓得。。 我只是知道。我再也不要受伤了。。

或许,冷漠有时候并不是无情,只是一种比便被伤害的工具。。

My 1st weekin UM..MHS..

hmm..
let's flash back..

1 month ago...
29th June, the day i report myself in UM..
started the Minggu Haluansiswa..

Minggu Haluansiswa
it was so horrible for the 1st day..
was ask 2 "chang","kung"..n they even take away our hp battery..
wat??!! Til nw i cant really imagine tat i've survive without a hp for 1 week..
it was such a miracle...hahha~~
The Pm here are quite fierce for the 1st week...well...sure..they have their own reason..
to keep us discipline..n really thanks 2 them for letting us hav such a good memory..
o ya..
of course, not forgetting that i've join d choir group during the MHS..ha..
there..i meet my new gang of frens...
da shao,er shao, ya huan...haha~~
til now we are so close until we can share everything together...
of course, Poh Ling n Shan Shan joined us after tis..
n..we've a new family named "the Royal Family"..haha~~
it was so fun n we met 2 cute PM-Lily...
try 2 imagine Doraemon..Believe me, Lily really looks like Doraemon...

hmm....
what else 2 say ya???
it's kinda long time ago...cant really remembe actually...hmm...
o ya...
the most memorable part during MHS..

the last night...

the last nite of MHS was the 1st time i cried in UM..
asking me why??
izzit because that i miss my family??home sick??
certainly NO!!
it was the tears of thankfulness...thanks for everythg the PM hav done 4 us..,
we losts the Cheer competition 2 our biggest enemy,we din get any reward...
we was told the sacrifices that the PM hav done for us..
yet...
we hav disappoint them..
(there's a long story 2 tell...ha...free then i type ya~~)

the last nite was ended with tearss of thankufulness n tears of joy..
haha~~
that night..
we are no more "freshi"..haha~~..

that night, i slept with a smile on my face..
telling myself that, i'm nw a uni student..
gotta grow up n stop being childish...
ha..
m i??
o ya..
not forgetting 2 be "low profile.."
haha~~

guess tat's my 1st week in UM..
hmm...
cant really remember all actually...






Introduction??

Introduction??
ha~~
wat kind of title is tis....

well..
tis wil the 1st blog i type after entering UM more thn 1 month..
dunno wat 2 type 4 my 1st blog, so..jz crap ba...ha~

sitting down in front of the laptop in my room, C 110,Kolej 4..
lots of assgmt next 2 me...
bt lazy 2 do..
haiz...

being here makes my life so fun til i gotta control myself for not forgetting wat's a student's responsible is..
swt...

pls: Jz crapping around 4 my 1st blog post~~
Ignore me ba....since i'm so low profile..haha~~