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累了～
不想再在这个话题打转了～　
生了一场大病，也看开了…
没有谁对谁错，
没有执不执著，　
一切随缘～

换个心情，
重新面对大家…

two days ago..i was so sick..
My fever was around 40.1calcius.. D clinic i went,d doctor x wanna treat me,telling me tat d clinic dun hav d medicine for me..n i'm an emergency case by tat time cz it's vy dangerous,so raymond sent me2 um hospital..
UM..
Really represent Malaysia..Malaysia Boleh..kononnya..waited for so long until Shan keep helping me n go2 d counter n ask..is it my turn to register..ya..u din read wrongly..is register..i was kinda blur tat time n i wonder hw i can msg some of my frens..my eye sight tat time was actually kinda blur..bt thank god..amitabha..i'm ok nw v some cough..
Finally..it's my turn to register..after registration..all i hav to do is WAIT..ya..wait n wait..until i cant stand n ask shan to tell them her fren is goin to pengsan only they call my name..
Love Malaysia? Welcome to Malaysia..let ur shout "Malaysia Boleh"since Merdeka is comin soon right?show ur love ya..
I wonder..hw Malaysia can really improve v tis kinda attitude..
Whn d doctor check me..i was quite blur n din really noe wat she did..so jz skip tat part..n jump to d conclusion..
Great..i was suspected h1n1 v those symptoms..lol..
Gotta self quarantine for a week..
Quickly phone my aunt n ask her can i stay at her house,but she say she's at church,cant pick me nw..
Phone to my mum..n immediately they decide to fetch me home..so they come straight to kl at 10 sumthg..n pick me bac..

Really thx to nik,hui teng,n shan.. Without them..i dunno wat shud i do..3of them forced me to go c d doctor..3of them help me pack my stuff..3of them x let me bath bt hui teng purposely boil hot water for me to clean myself..
Nik helped me check everythg..shan make sure i've taken my medicine..thx gals..luv ur so much..hehe..geli..bt i really appreciate ur lo..ha..
Mum reached around 1somethg..nik was actually oso uncomfortable n yet she stil tahan..thx ya..thx to my tumpang roommates too..

Reached home around 4am..i continue sleeping..vomited..bt feel better..
Slp for almost a day..
N x so high fever dy..
(skipped d process ya)

Tis blog is to remind me..
B grateful v wat i hav nw..
I'm glad..i'm born healthy..
Dun wanna b sick any more..

busy...
swt..
i'm x feeling well...
fever plus cough..
bt.
i cant fall..
at least at this moment no...

Stat assgmt haven started..
yet, we nid 2 hav discussion tml..
n jessica is goin 2 KILL me if i did nothg...
Research paper for EM i gota pass up tis comin fri yet, i haven get anythg...

O ya,...i'm d asst treasurer for quan bian..
n i gotta come out v a marketing proposal which i dunno a single thg..

i'm half dead..

Stat,EM,EP,CT,maths Intro, micro..
i'm lost..

din really contribute a single thg in all d group discussion...
dead...haiz..
sry guys...i din mean to b the blur one..
jz..
i oso dunno wat is goin on..haiz..
i nid more time..
i nid more fresh air..
i wanna get my room bac....

haiz............

sweetie..i dunno whether d "her" izzit me..
bt..jz 2 let u noe..
u r owez in the 1st place in my heart..
i din mean to not goin 2 u whenever i hav pro..
jz tat..
i've learnt 2 grow..
stop relying on ppl..
ppl oso has their right x to listen 2 ur issue right?
stop making myself to b such reliable on frens..
stop making myself 2 b such an annoyed person..
started 2 live in d dun k world v a x care attitude..
at least nw i wont get hurt anymore..
jz like wat u said the other day whn we chatted on9..
it's actually ok to b cold..
to protect myself...

no worries dear...i'll surely go to u whenever i cant stand any more..
tat day he phoned me,
i sin plan 2 talk bout it actually...
bt..end up...i oso dunno y we started talking..
n my tears started to roll down my cheeks..

yet..
after tat night..
i felt release..
i noe i stil hav ur..
though we r ar apart..
i noe i still hav u..
though we din really keep in touch..
i noe i nid 2 move on..
v ur accompany beside me..
so...

ur ah ma has grown up..
being tougher,stronger..
and of cz..
love u more...

really x worries..
din go to u doest mean i forgotten bout u...
is jz tat..I'm in the process of learning...
learn to b more mature..
learn to deal v my feelings...
learn to corp in my problem...

thx for letting me noe u r there for me..
really..
i really appreciate it..

love ya~

craziest day in my life(16-8-2009)

lolz...
it's gd 2 feel tat i'm stil alive...
it feel gd 2 reach home safe n sound..haha~~
never in my life thx the bus for being x puncture..
never..lolz..

special thx 2 Jia Hen..haha..
for letting me 2 feel such young..
thx 2 Big Head...for being in da same channel v him...lolz...

well..
after KLIA...
Jia Hen n Kah Chun went over Big Head's place for a night...
thn d next day was actually we follow JH's car bac 2 Melaka thn frm Melaka we go bac segamat..
bt..
haiz...
really...
kena bomb by tis two ppl..

as on our way bac..
there's a road sign to port dickson..
tis 宅男jiahen..
suggested tat let's go Port Dickson..
and big head sokong...
so..
end up...we reach PD..lolz..

i din bring extra clothes...
end up..i'm sitting at d beach watching d guys playing water..lolz..
and oso..kacau big head whn he's building sand castle..
we bought 8pm bus ticket...
lolz..
n yet...we r stil at PD at 6.15pm..
was raining heavily whn we were on our way 2 Melaka..
driving 100km/j on d highway v a kancil..
swt..
thx god..
nothg happen..
really pray hard...
thn later on..
rush to Melaka Sentral..
swt..running around it bcz we went 2 d wrg platform..thx 2 Jia Hen's fren Zhong Quan, help us stopping d bus..
otherwise i wonder where can i slp later on..phew~~

here r some SS picx..hehe...
really gd experience..
although tis blog doesnt look so crazy..
bt being there..is really really syok~~hehe~~


lolz..sitting down looking at those half naked guys..playing in da water like small kids...lolz...luckily i gt my umbrella v me..haha


the SS pic once we reach PD...

Jia Hen promoting KFC's mash Potatoes...


building sand castle...
my poor tortise tat i made was demaged my big head..without any pic i took..ish~


the sand castle build..


the little crab tat Jia Hen caught....


the sand castle..


hand made my big head,...and he's so satisfied v it..haha~

邪教与我

看了CS 回给霜的部落格，
有些感触…
的确，邪教再也回不到像以前那样…
甚至，更大胆的说，没有仲信这灵魂人物，邪教或许就不存在了…
有点伤感，但，这就是人生…

经过了风风雨雨，
我学会了…
放下，是为了让自己不再受伤害…
遗忘，是为了保护自己…
朋友，的定义在哪里？我也开始迷惘了…

邪教…
陪我走过许多风风雨雨…
一起欢笑，一起流泪，一起高调，
一起疯狂的庆祝人生每一年最重要的日子…
一起将心事，一起为final打拼…
写下了我人生最灿烂的一刻…

然而，随着时间的流逝…
距离的考验…

回想起上一回的Sunway…
有时甚至觉得我的出席是一种错…
没有人不知道我讨厌等人…
因为是她们，我愿意…
因为是她们，我坚持人到齐了才玩…
因为是她们，所以我在乎…
因为在乎，所以流泪…
然而，我好扫少了大家的兴…
不会控制自己eq的我，我想都让大家没有mood吧…
告诉自己没有第二次…
然而这第二次是什么？
不再出席吗？
不再再等吗？
我还在寻找着答案…


我对邪教也越来越没有信心了…
敏感的我永远都是大家的包袱…
不想成为邪教的负担…
不想成为大家的压力…
我学会了让自己坚强…
不再依赖邪教…
不再让人觉得我很烦…
不再找邪教成员诉苦…
或许，我还有vivian and Irene..
但，我也学会了长大…

不断的说服自己…
不要在意被大家遗忘…
不要在意就算你把人家放在第一位，人家也会忘记你…
不要在意每个人的心人生计划中没有你…
不要在意…
人都会喜新厌旧，当生活圈子扩大时，
对，你能有自己更好的朋友，你能选择遗忘…
而我…
在已成为大家的负担时，
选择了放下…

放下对这段友谊的执著…
放下了对这段友谊的在乎…
放下了一切…
以平常心面对大家…

不断地提醒自己，不要犯众怒……
不要老是重复自己的错误……
让大家觉得你的感受其实是对大家的心灵压力…

其实，很羡慕有些人…
有时，甚至会问自己，
当你有心事时，你第一个找谁？
当你想哭的时候，你会哭给谁听？
当你有好东西想分享时，你第一个会告诉谁？
有时，觉得自己很悲哀…
我竟然找不到人诉苦…

习惯带着微笑的面具…
就连最亲的朋友面前也很难说出口…
习惯告诉自己要坚强…
甚至连自己都给蒙骗了…
习惯逃避…
就连自己也以为没事了…

life still goes on no matter what happen...who is around you....
没有朋友是一辈子…
friend 4eva不会在我的生活字典中出现…

所以，
我只是不断的说服自己，
陆宇盈，
你有的只有你自己……

whn can i b d one who is teaching others?
y m i keep relying on ppl?
haiz...
y m i such stupid?
haiz..
life is miserable v a stupid brain..
especially whn tml's Statistic midterm is coming...
haiz....

[ENFP] [INFP] [ENFJ] [INFJ] [ESTJ] [ISTJ] [ESFJ] [ISFJ]
[ENTP] [INTP] [ENTJ] [INTJ] [ESTP] [ISTP] [ESFP] [ISFP]

by Joe Butt

Profile: ESFJ
Revision: 3.0
Date of Revision: 23 Feb 2005

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Guardians of birthdays, holidays and celebrations, ESFJs are generous entertainers. They enjoy and joyfully observe traditions and are liberal in giving, especially where custom prescribes.

All else being equal, ESFJs enjoy being in charge. They see problems clearly and delegate easily, work hard and play with zest. ESFJs, as do most SJs, bear strong allegiance to rights of seniority. They willingly provide service (which embodies life's meaning) and expect the same from others.

ESFJs are easily wounded. And when wounded, their emotions will not be contained. They by nature "wear their hearts on their sleeves," often exuding warmth and bonhomie, but not infrequently boiling over with the vexation of their souls. Some ESFJs channel these vibrant emotions into moving dramatic performances on stage and screen.

Strong, contradictory forces consume the ESFJ. Their sense of right and wrong wrestles with an overwhelming rescuing, 'mothering' drive. This sometimes results in swift, immediate action taken upon a transgressor, followed by stern reprimand; ultimately, however, the prodigal is wrested from the gallows of their folly, just as the noose tightens and all hope is lost, by the very executioner!

An ESFJ at odds with self is a remarkable sight. When a decision must be made, especially one involving the risk of conflict (abhorrent to ESFJs), there ensues an in-house wrestling match between the aforementioned black-and-white Values and the Nemesis of Discord. The contender pits self against self, once firmly deciding with the Right, then switching to Prudence to forestall hostilities, countered by unswerving Values, ad exhaustium, winner take all.

As caretakers, ESFJs sense danger all around--germs within, the elements without, unscrupulous malefactors, insidious character flaws. The world is a dangerous place, not to be trusted. Not that the ESFJ is paranoid; 'hyper-vigilant' would be more precise. And thus they serve excellently as protectors, outstanding in fields such as medical care and elementary education.

Functional Analysis:

Extraverted Feeling

ESFJs live in their Extraverted Feeling functioning. Feeling, a rational (i.e., deciding) function, expresses opinions easily in the E world of objects and people. ESFJs have the ability to express warmth, rage, and a range of other emotions. Actions are encouraged or rebuked based on how they affect other people, especially people near and dear to the ESFJ. This type's vocal decisiveness predisposes many of its number to facility with administration and supervision.

Introverted Sensing

The secondary Sensing function aids and abets the dominant Fe in that sensate data is collected and at once compared with the inner forms or standards. Data on which decisions are made are thus focused and given a contrast which tends to be stronger and clearer than the original stimuli. The strengthening effect of Si on Fe may be responsible for this type's reputation for wearing their "hearts on their sleeves." At any rate, ESFJs reflect the "black and white" view of reality which is common to the SJ types.

Extraverted iNtuition

Intuition is tertiary--as the ESFJ matures, and as situations arise which call for suspension of criticism, Ne is allowed to play. Under the leadership of the Fe function, iNtuition allows for a loosening of the more rigid Si rights and wrongs; teasing and slapstick humor emerge. ESFJs are also capable of discerning patterns and philosophies, but such perceiving is subject to the weakness of the tertiary position, and the results often lack the variety and complexity of connections that more complex systems require.

Introverted Thinking

The inferior Ti function may rarely be expressed. In fact, ESFJs may take affront at the aloof, detached nature of dominant Ti types, or conversely, be drawn to them. Some ESFJs construct rationale which have the appearance of (Jungian) Thinking logic, but under scrutiny are in fact command performances of "Thinking in the service of Feeling," (i.e., Thinking-like conclusions which do not obey the tenets of impersonal logic; they rather construct scenarios from only those "hard, cold facts" which support the conclusion reached by the dominant Extraverted Feeling function. To wit:

You don't sew with a fork, so I see no reason to eat
with knitting needles.
-- Miss Piggy, on eating Chinese Food

Famous ESFJs:

U.S. Presidents:

William McKinley

William J. Clinton

Jack Benny
Desi Arnaz ("Ricky Ricardo")
Don Knotts ("Barney Fife")
John Connally (former Governor of Texas)
Terry Bradshaw, NFL quarterback
Sally Struthers (All in the Family)
Mary Tyler Moore
Dixie Carter (Designing Women)
Steve Spurrier, Heismann trophy winner, Univ. of Fla. football coach
Sally Field
Danny Glover, actor (Lethal Weapon movies, Predator 2 Margaret Butt
Nancy Kerrigan (U.S. olympic figureskater)
Elvis Stojko (Canadian olympic figureskater)

Fictional ESFJs:

Babbitt (Sinclair Lewis)
Hoss Cartwright (Bonanza)
Leonard "Bones" McCoy (Star Trek)
Monica (Friends)
Haleh (ER)
Donald Duck
Rabbit, Winnie the Pooh

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gt tis interesting test frm my roommate..interesting~

http://typelogic.com/esfj.html

well..
finally...i went skating...after 1 month of planning...yet...
it is nt hw is it...
wasted my time for waiting...
wasnt in mood in d earlier on..
Her mis-sending msg last night actually makes me down..haiz..

bt...i stil carry on v the actual plan..
went 2 Sunway....
act like normal..
yet..thgs are far more different...

yet accumulated feeling preassure me..
while i was waitin..
d feeling comes all over again...

i hate waiting...
bt, because of them..
i force myself to wait..

waited 4 alomost an hour..
phone to shan..
n burst into tears...
haiz..

it was no longer like before...
d feeling is totally diff with those days..
i feel "kekok"..
din really enjoy the skating..
din really enjoy d K..

luckily i stil hav Vivian v me..
accompany me for ice cream..
comfort me..
luv ya gal..

Lesson Learnt :
friends are there to share hapiness...bt nt bitterness..
i'm nw better in acting..
i'm nw better in protecting myself..

i've really grown up.....