desperate??

well..
jz x understand y..
y tis few days my frens around me started to ask y m i stil single?
y dont i find a bf...
they even wanted 2 intro me some guys..swt=.="
hello~~~
i'm only 20..
nt 40 le...
x worry....=.=""

i owez told my fren i'm stil "s"-single, "a"-available...whenever they gossip bout me v Lobak o d other one..lolz...
dear all...i'm stil "Single" and "Available" bt nt "d"-desperate...
in short..i'm not "sad"..


for a gal who is only 20 without a bf...
shud she feel desperate?
does a bf really brighten up ur day?
does he really lighten up ur life..
ease ur pain..
share ur happiness??

why do we need a bd for while actually frens can do such thgs too??
hmmm...

ya..
i do admit..
sometimes whn i look at the frens around me v bf..
i really thinking of finding one..
thinking of to find the special one who i can go to whenever i'm sad o happy..
to find the one who i can share everythg....

bt...
most of the time i'm glad i'm single...
enjoying my single life...
i can go out v who i wan..
i can hang out v diff gang...
i wont nid 2 report bout my daily life to somebody else..
n most important...


i'm not prepared 2 share v someone special..
i'm not ready to take care of another's emotion...
i'm jz too selfish 2 hav another guy sharing my thoughts..

reading all d novels makes me plan to get the one and only one..
so..
i'll jz choose slowly..
haiz....

my frens owez say tat i criteria of a bf is too high...
bt..
to me..it's ok..swt..one of them even say the one i wan jz simply go pasar malam thn ady can get one...
ish ish...
do i??
i only wan..
some1 who can actually urge me to study...
some1 whose result who is better thn me,...
some1 who is tall enuf to let me feel safe...
some1 who can actually tahan my hot temper...
some1 who i wont feel bored with...
some1 who is more mature thn me....
some1 who can stop me frm being -ve..
some1 who is really really gd in Maths...(haha~~)
some1 who can continue the topic whn i'm tired of talking...

(ha..no more dimples...hard 2 get one v tat...)
n of cz...
some 1 who love me as much as i luv him...

yet..
i stil dunno d feeling of luv...
I Love my family..
I Love my frens..
I Love Eating...
I Love Novels...
is these Love...??

well..
i guess time will jz let me noe...
the meaning of "loVe"....

I WISH YOU ENOUGH

Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, 'I love you and I wish you enough'. The daughter replied, 'Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom'.

They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?'
'Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this forever good-bye?'
'I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,' she said..
'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means? '.
She began to smile. 'That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone'.. She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. 'When we said, 'I wish you enough', we want the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them'. Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.
I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.
I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

She then began to cry and walked away.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them but then an entire life to forget them.

dear frens...
i wish u enough...

China Trip

hm...came bac frm china for almost two weeks dy...
finally..
here's s short post bout it...
ha.
nothg much to say..
bt..
lots of experience u cant buy v $...
I bet some of ur sure ask...


"y??kena quarantine??"

nope..
somethg more special..haha...
at 1st was d health department frm Shenzhen..
they came up to d plane n check our body temperature one by one..
after tat..the system there make us panic like d H1N1 case is vy serious there...
bt..
tat was only d beginning..
after the kastam..everythg was normal..nobody is wearing a mask..
n there goes our journey in China..
we reached d hotel around 11 after dinner..
thn..go jalan-jalan lo...
n here goes...
i fell down in front of s stall..
nt fall..
or shud i say i was so clumsy..until i din notice d staircase was actually a place like for those oku v wheelchair....n i fell of like i'm sitting on a slide n landed in front of a stall..swt...
d 1st thg...
thn..
d next day,.
we was heading to gui ling...
n here come d van..
with NO AIR-COND!!
o shud say..
d air cons system spoilt once the van reach shenzhen..
OMG!!
it was a disaster where d van has only two windows..
n i'm sitting next to one of it...
so...
do u think i'm lucky?
at least i do nt hav to suffer frm d heat?
better take bac ur words after u c d driving skills of china ppl..
omg..
really mentally distract,,
i CANT slp..

suffer for almost 2 hour i guess...


n finally..
d van came to a bengkel..
n we waited for quite some time..
sittng in front of the petrol station..
saw hw dirty was d toilet is..
OMG~~toilets v no doors...
and v shits anywhere...OMG~~
finally..


here comes d aircond....


if u think it was d only thg i experience in china..
thn jz keep on reading...
the second day..
we were on our way to shao qing...

"BOMB"...

there's smoke coming out frm d van..n..
d van's air cond was spoilt..n d engine
was too hot...
n..

we waited at d roadside...swt....thn i started to count...tis is my 7th time d bus was spoilt at d roadside...swt swt.
:
:
:
finally..
d bus can move...bt without air cond...swt...

bt...luckily...
another big bus came...
a bus as big as cepat ekspress..
came..for our 12 ppl group...

ha..
ya..
big bus is comfortable..

bt...d bus was tooOO BIG~~
until i was forgotten by d "dao you" in one of the place we visited..
luckily it was an indoor factory...
otherwise..
frens..
ur wont c me nw...


if u thought it was d only thg..no big deal...
ha...
c tis...

we were almost kena saman by Hong Kong 's authority..
i dunno whether r they police o who else..
bt..
fm tat..
i only noe tat... HK's MRT has 1st class seats oso..
ha..
long story..
tell ur whn i meet ur ya..

i thonk tat's all gua..
hmm..
oso x so interesting ba..


p/s: sry ya..no time for me to shop...haiz....

I'm Lucky....

went Malacca last night..
had a long cht v Kang Wen, Han Sion, Pak Siong, Yik Chi on our way bac..
reached home around 2am..
ha~~~

"I'm LuCky~"

tat's d conclusion i hav...

I'm lucky...
bcz i hav a warm big family...
without them...I'm no one...

I'm lucky...
bcz i hav them..
my frens...

I'm lucky...
bcz i got the course i wan...
and i enjoy my uni life...

mum owez say tat I'm 傻大姐..
ha..
although it's kinda true...
(can c it after d china trip..)
bt...it's true oso tat 傻人有傻福...
ha~~

i like talking v frens...
especially durin our pillow talk..
mayb yest was only on our way bac hm....
x considered as pillow talk...
bt to me..
it touches my heart..
we share our thinking, our feeling,our experience...
we share...
I noticed tat after secondary..
everybody grown up..
becoming mature...
n i'm glad..
we still keep in touch...

Pak Siong gt his offer in Sabah...
which yest trip was like kinda farewell..
celebrated his n yik chi's belated birthday...

purposely went down 2 Melaka to sing K..
to shop for his formal clothes..
go enjoy malacca's food...

This gang, is jz like a family of mine..ha...
we can shop for han siong's grocery stuff in Giant...
we can choose formal clothes for Pak Siong..
we can do a lot of stuff together..
n i'm glad to hav them....haha~~

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK ?

Both Friends Will Think The Other Is Busy

And Will Not Contact
Thinking It May Be Disturbing
As Time Passes Both Will Think Let The OTher Contact
After That each Will Think Why I Should Contact First ?
Here Your Love Will Be Converted To Hate

Finally Without Contact The Memory Becomes Weak

They Forget Each Other.

So Keep In Touch With All
I Don`t Want To Be One Of This Kind.
So I am Here To say~
To Say
Dear Friend
I Am Fine Here
Please keep in touch with me

had a long chat v some of my friends last night...
i think..most of my close friends noe tat i was like havin a hard time bout frenship in my life..
as i see friends is the most important element in my life...
saw a blog post jz nw..
knowing tat there's a birthday gathering..
n..i hav no idea bout it...
at 1st i thought i'll b sad..
feeling tat i've really be forgotten...
bt...
surprisingly,i feel nothg...
so..
i started to think...
wat does fren mean to me nw...
n i found out..
time can makes some1 to b more mature...

I realize tat i can 看淡frenship...
keeping them in my heart n move on...
at least..
they gave me d strength..
x 2 b alone...
bt to move on alone...
we might nt been contact for quite some time..
bt...
thx...
thx for bein there whn i was in dillema..
thx for letting me noe ur r still there..
thx for the msgs ur semd...
thx for ur phone calss tat giv me d confidence i need...

thx my fren..
luv ur so much...

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gt my worst result ever..
haiz..
wat shud i say??
hav ady been soOoo down for almost one week...
n even think to take statistik in econs as major..
i think it's my another way 2 commit suicide ba..
haiz...

is nt tat i din study tis sem.
it's nt tat i really patto v Novel tis time...
bt..
haiz..
jz let it b ba..
it makes me to stand still v my will..
-to go for my ACCA-
after this..
haiz..

life still goes on v such result..
haiz...

i wonder...can i really push up my cgpa next sem??haiz...
pls....
i'm praying hard for it..haiz...