学会放下…一路好走……也还好，大家都还是在一起……

大头…  你好吗？
我想，我们都很好…
一切也正在回归正常…
我们也在尝试接受你离去的事实…

记得你出殡的那天，
经过了大家熟悉不过的东甲，
每一条街，每一家店…有我们的回忆…
沉重的心情，仲信唱着歌，陪着你，陪着大家…走完你的路~
仪式结束后，大家，心情也平复了不少…
甚至还可以说水哭得比较丑，谁点起了那发达的泪眼线…


那天，仲信告诉我他梦见了你…
听着他的梦境，用着你的口头谈，
眼泪不知不觉滑落…
希望你真的能像在仲信的梦境一样，快乐…
放心，
我们会好好的替你把未完成的路，一起走完~~

R.I.P

he's there whenever we have our gathering...

he's there, being the one who bring all those craziness with Ming cher..

he's there whenever we ask for a gathering...

he's there to bring us joy..happiness..fun...

he's there to be the planner...a gd tempered fren..

n sorry to burst out to u whenever my temper came..

sorry for not concerning about you..

sorry for not being with you when you were down..

sorry for my stupidity telling myself that it's time for me to dun look so heavy towards friendship..

I've learnt my lesson..I'll not force myself to be cold..I'll not be upset whenever the others find excuse for nt coming to gathering..I'll cherish those who are here..

I regreted..

regreted for not being with you..

regreted for not helping you..

but.......

all you left us was only memories...

i missed you badly...

i missed you...

remember our Kuala Kangsar Trip?

the one that i'm dai sai..

the bus spoit half way?

you n cher cher took ur towel out n dry it?

all the stupid pic we took while waiting for the next bus?

Penang..

our one and only once celebrating ur birthday...

sorry...

really sorry..besides sorry, there's nothg else to say...

u were there for everyone's birthday...

but...

we were not there for you....

please..turn the clock back...

Remember the study week?

u,taught me my maths..

u showed me hw some1 can be so relax during exam week...

u showed me hw some1 can be so creative..

u showed me how maths can be so fun....

u showed  me things that make me misses you alot....

remember the mooncake festival?

the craziness we spend?

the rain we go through?

remember all the birthday parties?

the cakes you bought?

the cream u throw?

the ppl's head you pushed??

the tutorial's room we dirty???

remember the Kuala Kangsar's Laksa??
that u r afraid of?

remember all the places u brought them in Segamat?
the Dataran?Nan yang?
My house??
you suggested that my house can put Wifi...
yet..
ya..i have wifi at my house nw..
bt r u here to use it??!


remember my 18th years old birthday suprise?
the BBQ at ur house..
i knew hw hard ur plan especially it was our exam period..thx~
n my fav mint ice cream cake?
the "fake wedding' that they organise?

lotasa memories...
miss u......

the journey back home

CS called...
and asked...
Can translate this msg for me?It's frm Big head's sis...frm Naiba...

" My bro is gone.They Found his body at Kuantan.Please inform his friend"

was  stressed with my works...
this msg came..
strike me again...


i wanted to cry..
bt....
no tears..
there's somethg in my heart...
i felt  there's something missing..
yet...
there's no words for me to describe how i feel..

i have no idea how did i go through the few hours untill i met CS..

all i did was..
forcing myself to face the digits..
making phonecalls to friends,telling them d bad news..
phoning mum,dad,n him...
finally..
burst into tears when i was talking to mum...
yet..
was a short while..
cause boss was still there...

met CS finally...
i'm glad..
we still have each other..
came bac straight from JB to Segamat with xiao xing xing, yong wei, john, CS&zhi jing...

everybody was calm during our journey..
talking bout the memories..

singing songs...
forcing ourselves to nt think that we had lost him forever...
i miss darling badly..
called him bt cant listen to his voice...
was fed up!!
n sry to show u my temper....


reached home...
it's really home sweet home...
felt relieve....


reached Segamat...
with a gang of KMJ's..
yet..
it's still different...
without HIM...
i started to miss him....

感触

看着她们收拾…

床、橱清空了…

桌面，干净了…

衣服塞到了旅行箱…

所有的东西也清完…

连同大家的回忆也打包了~

今天的感触特别多…

有不舍，可惜，伤心…

所有离别之情都在心里翻滚…

C110 的一点一滴…

从我们第一天到这间房…

从我们相识那一天…

一起为PKB,PTB熬夜的日子…

一起练扯铃的时间…

一起看戏，一起gossip,一起分享心事…

喜欢看着你们在我床上打架…

一起吃MaggieMee…

一起去逛街、唱K，走PasarMalam…

那么多那么多的回忆~

乏味的大学生活因为你们也变得有趣~

直到……

从误会发生…

开始伪装…

开始寻找话题…

开始沉默…

成为最熟悉的陌生人…

直到……

原本放着3粒扯铃的橱德位置，不知何时已被杂物取代~

原本放满食物的篮子，不晓得何时被旧报纸取代~

原本喧闹的房间，不晓得何时变得冷清清~

原本无话不谈的我们，不晓何时得变得很生疏~

原本对彼此不客气的我们，不晓得何时变得那么多礼

心，

在淌着血~

表面坚强的我，

老是装着我不在乎…

老是说服着自己已放下…

老是往外跑，一刻也不想留在充满回忆的房间里…

老是告诉自己你还有别人…

老是提醒着自己别再执著~

然而，然而…

此时此刻的房间，

我静静的看着每一个角落~

每一个点都有我们的回忆~

我的床，你们以前的打架地方…睡午觉很热的地方…

你的位置，每当我的书本超国界线时你的投诉…

每当你看着康熙时的大笑声，

每当我们在你那用着你的电脑，开着千千静听，唱着我们的歌~

你的位置，最少书本…

最容易煮烧水的地方…

看着整排桌子，有我们一起读书，一起Tea Time,一起吃Maggie Mee的影子~

心…

有种不知如何说明的感触~

不经意看见电脑荧幕上screen saver 的1st year 照片~

回想起当年的我们~

看着现在的我们~

很想哭…

很想找一个人哭诉~

很想找一个能够明白我的心情、我的矛盾的人，

把所有的垃圾心情都给扔出来~

然而，

此时此刻我找不到~

坦白说，

我很介意，

很介意大家永远出去玩，都会忘记我~

很介意自己永远都是大家的替代品~

很介意大家的玩乐世界中，没有我~

很介意消息永远都是最后一个知道~

很介意永远都不知道周围发生着什么事~

很介意只有需要我的时候，才会找我借Notes~

没错，你可以怪我，

是我自己要与大家隔离~

是我自己每次不要在房间~

是我自己有了另一个他而不爱参你们~

是我自己还放不下~

所以，

我想，我的“很介意”都是咎由自取…

我想，我的“很介意”都是自作自受…

我想，我的“很介意”都是我想太多…

我想，我的“很介意”只好用微笑来带过~~

陆宇盈， 你太敏感了~

可不可以请你看开点？？

是时候长大了~

是时候不去介意那么多了~

戴上微笑的面具，过你的日子吧~ 

笑一笑没什么烦恼~

...

there's somethg not right here...
i can feel it...
bt..
i dunno what's going wrong.....

what a day

30th April..
a day full of bitterness, sadness..bt ended up with sweetness,happiness...

was striving hard 2 aim for a B- for Macro..
study, n did every tutor tips...
shud be able to get an A- after finished all those..
yet...
the Panic me came...
was panic...was scare..n was Blank for the two hours paper..
keeping a finger cross that i'll pass this..otherwise a RETAKE is for sure..
1st time..my very 1st time doin such badly in Finals...
usually, during Finals, when I dunno how to do, i'll be able to blow water..yet..
this time..its totally different...
Blank, skip and trying hard 2 hold on my tears...

finished exam..
cant tahan anymore, tears rolling in my eyes when I told hui yee bout it..
forcing myself nt 2 think n be prepared for RETAKE..
still able to tahan and went 2 fac to meet my LI supervisor, to joke with Lobak, to crap wit amy..and able to walk back to college ALONE...
it was like the longest way ever from FEA to 4th College..

din go bac straight to my room..
went over lab com..
n started complaing while BK was half awake..
finally burst into tears in front of him..
was cursing myself for being such stupid inside his tight arm..
was complaining bout my owez exam phobia...
it's gd to have someone there for you...
it really work it out whenever you were down..
n i'm glad that i have HIM..^^

the plan for going for IP Man II didn change..
after went bac 2 FEA to see my supervisor..
we started my so called brighter day...

while waiting for the bus at Intan Gate, met Ah Xian..
n tumpang his car 2 Station Uni...
went and renew my KTM student card..
n only i found out..
TODAY, is really NOT MY DAY..

after settle everthg..
Renew student card, buy train ticket...
thn we headed to Time Square..
once we reached there, we asked for student price...
AND..
I FOUND OUT THIS>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.
I LEFT MY IC & STUDENT CARD AT KL SENTRAL!!
OMG!!
rushed bac to KL Sentral and take it...
making extra trips..n sry darling for keep troubling you...

SS Time in Monorail...

...The MOvie...

IP Man II was nt my type of movie although I'm d only one complaining that it's nt nice..
i dislike the fighting part..
The part where the Hong Sifu died nearly took my tears, was rinsing my nose tat time..
thn the front row thought i was crying, the whole row turn bac and look at me..LOL..
soOoOo embrassing..
as what Hui Yee said...no matter where I go..there will be funny thg happening..swt..

...The dinnEr...

after the movie..
we went jalan-jalan and we finally decide to have our dinner at "Gasoline"..
as promised, Darling insisted for steak as dinner bcz i've requested it Long long Ago for our planning for our 1st month anniversary..
and there goes..
our main course of course..THE STEAK...hmm....dun really tasted nice..

Me with the menu..cute??i mean the menu design la..not me...><
Cracking head for thinking what to order...

So...Overall:

5/10 for the food.

Darling's order: BLACK PEPPER BUTTER LAMB CHOP

My order:MONGOLIA CHICKEN CHOP THE ADD ON: CHICKEN WINGS
(the only thg that taste better)

4/10 for the drinks..

..WEIRD TASTE..
(Miss Leong, see there...only one straw,satisfied??)ha~

8/10 for the environment..
The outlook of the restaurant that really suck us in...
special and private places for all..

5/10 for the service
1st time in my life i heard a waiter saying that x nid 2 repeat order..OMG...n he looks blur to me...><

In case you all cant read, the words on the wall were all complaining about the services..

And..The Bill: (Picx is gonna update later)

and the best best part of the day...
Darling gave me a bear....muackz..

The innocent look of it....

and me with the bear^^

If you thought that ended up my day..
u were SO WRONG!!
LOL...hey peeps..i lost my train ticket while jalan-jalan..swt..swt swt!!

WHAT A DAY!!