The Crazy Daysss

I Miss the daysss..

especially at this stressful period..

I miss everyone whom we play, we enjoyed, we laugh, we cry and be fat together...

The crazinness we shared..

The stupid things we did..

The fat we added..

The fights we gone through..

I miss you all....

I just need another crazy way for me to distress..

lazy to complain as it wont help..

trying hard 2 study yet..

self confidence make me don't trust myself..

Haiz..

perhaps a bowl of maggie mee with Suang,Hui Yee, Vivian, Irene, See Yee will do..

I just hope the day will appear one more time...

Random

hmm..

has been talking alot to my aunt's niece lately..

and I'm really thankful..

for being loved by so many...

Friends..

are always the one who coloured my day..

was sharing with her bout the friends i have..

and I think of everyone I met...

The one whom hurts me..

The one whom supported me..

The one whom protected me..

The one whom treat me as friends...

My definition for F.R.I.E.ND.S is just very simple...

They are there for you no matter what happen..

They are there for you for what you are..

They are there to make fools of you just because they know you well..

They are there for you to share your sweetest thing with him..

They are there to comment bout your bad things and hope you will be better...

AND guess what?

I do have friends like that...

I am lucky...

To have all of them..

I always think that i do not deserve GOOD friends..

Because I'm nt a good one..

I dun help ppl yet I trouble them..

I dun have Good Temper and I HAVE MOOD SWING...

I'm not smart and I always trouble them during studies..

And That's why..

I'm Thankful..

Thanks everyone !!

Thanks for being there always...

Love this song:

 范玮琪 一个像夏天 一个像秋天

一个像夏天 一个像秋天
词:姚若龙
曲:陈小霞

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句
如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音
我的有口无心
我离不开Darling更离不开你
一个像夏天 一个像秋天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句
如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音
我的有口无心
我离不开Darling更离不开你
你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形象保密
如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句
如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音
我的有口无心
我离不开Darling更离不开你

Whenever I listen to this song, 

I think of  Vivian..

The one who first complain why I talk so much..

The one who is totally my opposite...

The one who I can talk no matter how long we din meet each other..

The one who is special for me..

I think of Shan..

I remember when I first saw her, I really dun like her pattern..

BECAUSE: SHE IS EVEN MORE TALKATIVE THAN ME!! 

They always say..

same pattern ppl cant become good friends..

Because you have too much of similarities..

and you will end up arguing..

but we ended up as BEST FRIENDS..

going through all the Uni shits together..

I might have been abandon her lately..

patto ady ma..

sorry la..no time for u...darling more important...haha...

but dun wry...listen and read the lyrics...hahaa

no worries..

We wil be BFF!!

I think of Irene..

The one who is so gao diao at DK1..

The one who we always talk bout her behind her..

asking why can she be so gao diao with her manja voice...

HAHA!! who knows we ended up as Mother & Daughter??LOL

I think of HuiYee..

The one who has the higher EQ than me x 10000000times..

The one who suan siao me the most but knows me well...

The one who commented bout by -ve side and say It's TIME TO GROW UP..

A totally opposite with me as well..But..she's always there..

to crap with when I'm bored..

to listen with my grandmother's story..

She will be impatient...haha~bt will stil listen while doing her own thing..

to plan with birthday present.althought i'm always the one come out with mouth, and she's the one coming out with Ideas and ACTION...

Thanks ALOT!!

I think of Zhong Sing..

The pinky pig..

the one who brought me back to Xie Jiao.

The one who told me what Xie Jiao is meant to be..

The one who always make ppl worry and dunno how to take care of himself..

I think of Kang Wen,Cher Shin, Han Siong,Pak Siong, Yik Chi..

The one I knew since primary..

The one who hears most of my dreams..

The one who I actually spend the most little time with them..

and less memories..

yet..

our friendship is still strong...=)

I Think of Jessica..

My Mum in UNI~~

LOL..

the one who care bout my result and really able to control her temper while teaching me..

The one who listen but don't comment...

The one who i always call "Ah BU"..haha~

I think of Suang..

The gal who is always tough at the surface...

The gal who I contacted lesser when we enter Uni.

yet the friendship still grow~

The one who we wil find each other when we want to talk~~

guess that's all??

hmm..

did I miss out anyone??

Thanks for being there my dear friendsss~~

We are graduating very soon..

and we will be all far apart...

I still wish..

We will be FRIENDS 4eva!!

隐瞒vs决定权

每一次告诉自己
要放开、要放下、别计较、笑一笑…
然而，
一次又一次的隐瞒…
一次又一次的假装…
一次又一次的“谅解”…
都让我们失望透了…

怀疑自己是不是做错了…
怀疑自己是不是真的小气…
怀疑自己是不是如此的惹人厌…

谢谢你们的“谅解”…
谢谢你们的“体谅”…
谢谢你们的“体贴”…

除了这些我不晓得还有什么能够谢了~

然而，这些都不是我们所需要的…
我们要的是“决定权”…
不是霸道，而是想知道…

当你从别人口中知道了真相，
而且是属于你们一gang的东西时，
你的心情会是如何？

我承认，我感觉到我被嫌弃…
更替他们觉得委屈…因为我，他们也连带的被遗忘…
甚至于被责怪，原因就是太挺我…
挺我有错吗？

试问，
朋友在你们的定义是什么？
难道就真的是吃、喝、玩、乐吗？
那你的酸、甜、苦、辣要找谁分担呢？

那天看到了明明是最熟悉的你，
两天前还通过电话…
从家乡来到了KL,也没有通知…
对，没错，
你，
或许认为我们可以从他人口中知道你有回过来…
或许认为我们在忙着跑donation drive…
或许认为我们巧遇你了之后会主动联络你…
我们的心摇摇欲坠…
已经在经不起打击…
担心你给的借口…
逃避你给的理由…
胆怯你给的反应…
而你，
从头到尾都抱着鸵鸟心态的你
又再一次的让我们受伤了…
对你而言
一封信息很贵吗?
一封电话很难吗？
还是
是我们应该主动联络你们呢？
是我们应该面对你们的冷落？
是我们应该把问题解决好？

谢谢你们又再一次的
让我知道友谊真正的定义是什么…
谢谢你们又再一次的
在我们的伤口上撒盐…
谢谢你们又再一次的
提醒着我们原本以不当一回事的往事…

除了谢谢，还是谢谢……

其实，
真的没有必要隐瞒，
隐瞒所造成的伤害是你们不能想象的…
没错，
你们会认为我们我们敏感…
但，
将心比心，
如果有一天，我们原本是一大班的朋友
有了某个计划，而你就是被遗忘的那个…
如果某一天，大家都计划好了，最后一个才很敷衍的问你…
你的感受如何？

或许你们都不会有这样的经历…
因为你们还有彼此…
而我，却只有珊，Lobak 和Ah Xian…

你们一直一直强调着，
问题是在我们身上…
我们的敏感，
我们的小气，
我们的放不开，
让你们很为难…
然而
你们呢？
难道所有的问题就只是出在单方面吗？

决定权并不是因为我们霸道…
而是至少让我们知道我们
没有被遗弃，
没有被遗忘，
没有被排斥…

这小小的通知真的很辛苦吗？

看这原本聊天可以很直接的我们
竟然变得有所顾虑…
很尴尬…
很勉强…
甚至有时候你们对我们约你们的态度…
让我们觉得
我们真的很霸道、不讲理…

心真的很痛…

或许所有人都认为是我，是我们把友情看得太重了…
那……
如你们所愿，
陆宇盈已经不是你们所认识的陆宇盈了…
她的笑容，她的高调，她的欢乐已不属于大家了…

她不再坚持友谊是她的全部…
谢谢你们把她的信念给活生生的碾碎……
谢谢！！

small gathering..

hmm..well..
met v Irene few days ago on Tue..
ha..
she has become thinner and prettier..
n me, irene, vivian n suang had 4 ppl's bbq..
weird right?
y bbq v 4 ppl?
ha..i oso dunn y..
bt it ws quite fun..

seeing hw irene starts d fire..
seeing hw vivian becoming a "mother" chasing her dog..scolding it 4 becomin naughty...
seeing hw Suang is filling food into her mouth n saying tat tis is her 1st time nid 2 bbq food stuff herself..bla bla bla...

it was fun actually..
bt kinda wasted cz we were bz eating and din really snap much pic..hmm...
n din talk much too.
haiz..
i miss d pillows talk those day...

guess tat suang is too pretty..
n her beloved dear came n pick her earlier..
din get to take d pic of 4 of us..
so..
its left 3 of us...

bt we din talk much too..
i dunno whether its bcz of we are too tired?too hot?
ok la..i admit one of d reason is bcz i gt abit of bz sms-ing la..haha~~
n we were bz having ice cream..hehe...

bt v lots of picx..
o ya..forgotten bout Vivian's beloved son "leng lui" toy toy~~
haha~~

hopefully d Hui Yee wont missed d next gathering..
n tis time i hope for one whole night of pillow talks..hee~~

Starts to MAKAN~~

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Toy Toy 抢镜头


irene helping us 2 put d chicken wings..cz all of us dun wanna dirty our hand..haha

Vivian feeding her "son"..你一口我一口~ ha~

preparation...







~Me+ Irene Darling~


~Me & vivian sweetie...~


My Best Best Evil twins..
d one i love d most....



the star of d day...Toy tOy~

every1 wants to take picx v it..haha





(sure ur wil b curios..eh..u nt scare of dogs one meh..haha..tis is dunno after hw many pic..n d only one tat "looks" better..lolz..)
see This:...d preparation part............................for me 2 dare 2 carry toy toy..

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makes me remember d "triplets" og Aya Aji..hha

it's time to let go...

hav been cold for quite some time..
felt nothg..
nt a sense of happiness..
nt a sense of sadness..
nt a sense of disappointment ..

NOTHG...

I'm NUMB...


i felt emptiness inside me..
i'm scare of myself..
being cold..
I dunno myself...
i dun understand myself...
I'm losing myself....

yet..
tis time..
i went through all this alone....
nt a single emotion spread out to any1...
i may complaint..
i may mention..
bt who?
who really know wat i feel?
NOBODY...

n i realise..
i hav really grown up..
i can solve my pro myself...
i can b my own listener...
i can b my personal counselor..

but..
should i b happy v d changes of me....

No more becoming a burden for others..
No more bringing my emotions to others..
No more showing black face to d others..
No more being sensitive..
No more showing my hot temper..

Izzit it a good change?
Izzit it a brand new start?
Izzit it a better me?

Yet..somethg is missing..
Somethg important..
Somethg..which i dunno wat is it..


i Love hanging out v frens..
I love sharing with frens..
Frens were once the priority in my life..
wat bout now??

i dun really noe actually...
I dun really care actually..
I dun really mind actually..

Plans,entertainment,o any other thg else which last time was my priority,no matter hw busy m i,i'll stil join r nw nothg for me..
I can jz x join if it crash v some other thg..
I can jz stay in da room alone nw without any feeling..
I m comfortable by being forgotten..by being neglected..


slept quite late these few days..
doin last min work..
facebook-ing..
marketing proposal...
being awake alone..
i started thinking..
think..

is there somethg wrg with me?
why..
why i feel nothg..

i can laugh like nobody business in front every1 although to me its nt funny..
i can pretend i'm stil close to u..although we all noe tat we r nw far apart..
i can act nothg whenever some1 ask hw r u?
i can ask d others to concern bout d others...

tis is nt a gd thg...

n i started to tell myself..
its time 2 let go...
its time 2 find d true me..
its time 2 get bac d optimistic me..
its time 2 b +ve...
its the time now..........


special thx to shan,xian, lobak, d "xiao zha bo" gang, n him..when i'm down..
thx 2 xie jiao..which let me still believe in frenship...especially CS...
thx...

blur...

it's almost 6.
yet..
I'm stil awake...

hav shut my heart down..
started being cold..
and even..
i felt nothg bout all d stuff tat shan told me...

finally..
i m nw cold..

yet..
had a long long talk v hui teng...
was shock..
i thought i'll b d one whose tears wil b rolling down my cheeks...
yet...
i felt nothg...
n suddenly i found out..
izzit really good for being cold?

n at that moment..
NO!!

at tat moment..
i was suppose to felt touched..
knowing what they actually did..
what they actually planned...
what do I really meant to them...
yet...

i was like x feel..

it's really x gd..
i'm suppose 2 choose to forgive and forget...

both parties are to blamed..
nt only them..

and ya...
i shud b d one who b d one who gt blamed d most..
n i admit myself for being -ve, sensitives, emotional, showing black face....
really SORRy~~

i jz really hope tat everythg wil b fine...
n i'll b bac myself...

i nid more time...

thx for hurting me...

I wanna say...

thx..
thx for hurting me...
thx..
thx for giving me d chance to grow up...
thx..
thx for letting me noe...wat does d true friendship mean..
thx...
thx for letting me noe...i'm jz like a piece of shit in ur eyes..

for d pass few days..
my world was lie turning up side down...
everythg was in a mess..
my friendship, my relationship..
everythg..
until i even started to believe tat ..
i'm jz mend to b alone..

there's nothg such as true friendship in the reality...
no matter hw u take them as...
no matter hw u see them as...
they feel nothg..
all ur efforts r jz like a cold jokes made by an idiot clown jz to brighten up ur days...

suppose to hav a great time at Gan's house the other day..
yet..
i din enjoy it at all..
ya.
mayb shan is right...
durin d whole night...
who is there to concern I'm no more bein noisy..
who is there to ask...r u ok?
who is there for me?

ya..
u can say tat..
i'm an adult..
n i shud b more mature..
stop being such emotinal...
stop relying on friendship...

bt..
those who knows me..
friendship is such an important element in my life..
is it tat support me when ever i'm down..
is it to hold me on whn i'm giving up..
is it tat brighten up my day..

was blaming myself for nt being updated..
was blaming myself for being emotional..
was blaming myself for showing black face..
was blaming myself for making gang breaking into two parts..
in the pass few days...
I suffer..
suffer for blaming myself...

Yet..
thgs changes whn i noe somethg frm Shan...
n..
only i realize..
hw NOT important r we to them...
to them..
we are JUST NOTHING bt a clown...

some1 they can forget whn they r having so much fun..
some1 they never think of whn they r enjoying..
some1 jz like a stranger for them..

bt..
i admit..
it was my fault tis time..
for goin out for ice cream without waiting 4 them...
yaya..
n letting them hav an excuse for din even let us noe where they went...


hw many times i've told myself for being COLD..
hw many times i've told myself jz let it be...
hw many times i've told myself to kan kai dian..
hw many times i've lie to myself..
thgs wil b alright...
thousands and thousands of times..

and i'm so cold nw..

after being alone in da room..
nt knowing where d others went..
i stay awake til almost 4am..
yet..
i'm all alone..

seeing shan putting so much effort in letting me noe..
there's true frenship..
seeing her hw she is hurt by nw..

ya..
shan..
u r right...
we hav ourselves...
we hav both of us...
i'll b there for u..
owez...

ya..
HY.
u r right..
i gota stop taking such simple thg so serious...
whn i stil hav xie jiao with me.....

replies..

累了～
不想再在这个话题打转了～　
生了一场大病，也看开了…
没有谁对谁错，
没有执不执著，　
一切随缘～

换个心情，
重新面对大家…

sweetie..i dunno whether d "her" izzit me..
bt..jz 2 let u noe..
u r owez in the 1st place in my heart..
i din mean to not goin 2 u whenever i hav pro..
jz tat..
i've learnt 2 grow..
stop relying on ppl..
ppl oso has their right x to listen 2 ur issue right?
stop making myself to b such reliable on frens..
stop making myself 2 b such an annoyed person..
started 2 live in d dun k world v a x care attitude..
at least nw i wont get hurt anymore..
jz like wat u said the other day whn we chatted on9..
it's actually ok to b cold..
to protect myself...

no worries dear...i'll surely go to u whenever i cant stand any more..
tat day he phoned me,
i sin plan 2 talk bout it actually...
bt..end up...i oso dunno y we started talking..
n my tears started to roll down my cheeks..

yet..
after tat night..
i felt release..
i noe i stil hav ur..
though we r ar apart..
i noe i still hav u..
though we din really keep in touch..
i noe i nid 2 move on..
v ur accompany beside me..
so...

ur ah ma has grown up..
being tougher,stronger..
and of cz..
love u more...

really x worries..
din go to u doest mean i forgotten bout u...
is jz tat..I'm in the process of learning...
learn to b more mature..
learn to deal v my feelings...
learn to corp in my problem...

thx for letting me noe u r there for me..
really..
i really appreciate it..

love ya~

craziest day in my life(16-8-2009)

lolz...
it's gd 2 feel tat i'm stil alive...
it feel gd 2 reach home safe n sound..haha~~
never in my life thx the bus for being x puncture..
never..lolz..

special thx 2 Jia Hen..haha..
for letting me 2 feel such young..
thx 2 Big Head...for being in da same channel v him...lolz...

well..
after KLIA...
Jia Hen n Kah Chun went over Big Head's place for a night...
thn d next day was actually we follow JH's car bac 2 Melaka thn frm Melaka we go bac segamat..
bt..
haiz...
really...
kena bomb by tis two ppl..

as on our way bac..
there's a road sign to port dickson..
tis 宅男jiahen..
suggested tat let's go Port Dickson..
and big head sokong...
so..
end up...we reach PD..lolz..

i din bring extra clothes...
end up..i'm sitting at d beach watching d guys playing water..lolz..
and oso..kacau big head whn he's building sand castle..
we bought 8pm bus ticket...
lolz..
n yet...we r stil at PD at 6.15pm..
was raining heavily whn we were on our way 2 Melaka..
driving 100km/j on d highway v a kancil..
swt..
thx god..
nothg happen..
really pray hard...
thn later on..
rush to Melaka Sentral..
swt..running around it bcz we went 2 d wrg platform..thx 2 Jia Hen's fren Zhong Quan, help us stopping d bus..
otherwise i wonder where can i slp later on..phew~~

here r some SS picx..hehe...
really gd experience..
although tis blog doesnt look so crazy..
bt being there..is really really syok~~hehe~~


lolz..sitting down looking at those half naked guys..playing in da water like small kids...lolz...luckily i gt my umbrella v me..haha


the SS pic once we reach PD...

Jia Hen promoting KFC's mash Potatoes...


building sand castle...
my poor tortise tat i made was demaged my big head..without any pic i took..ish~


the sand castle build..


the little crab tat Jia Hen caught....


the sand castle..


hand made my big head,...and he's so satisfied v it..haha~

邪教与我

看了CS 回给霜的部落格，
有些感触…
的确，邪教再也回不到像以前那样…
甚至，更大胆的说，没有仲信这灵魂人物，邪教或许就不存在了…
有点伤感，但，这就是人生…

经过了风风雨雨，
我学会了…
放下，是为了让自己不再受伤害…
遗忘，是为了保护自己…
朋友，的定义在哪里？我也开始迷惘了…

邪教…
陪我走过许多风风雨雨…
一起欢笑，一起流泪，一起高调，
一起疯狂的庆祝人生每一年最重要的日子…
一起将心事，一起为final打拼…
写下了我人生最灿烂的一刻…

然而，随着时间的流逝…
距离的考验…

回想起上一回的Sunway…
有时甚至觉得我的出席是一种错…
没有人不知道我讨厌等人…
因为是她们，我愿意…
因为是她们，我坚持人到齐了才玩…
因为是她们，所以我在乎…
因为在乎，所以流泪…
然而，我好扫少了大家的兴…
不会控制自己eq的我，我想都让大家没有mood吧…
告诉自己没有第二次…
然而这第二次是什么？
不再出席吗？
不再再等吗？
我还在寻找着答案…


我对邪教也越来越没有信心了…
敏感的我永远都是大家的包袱…
不想成为邪教的负担…
不想成为大家的压力…
我学会了让自己坚强…
不再依赖邪教…
不再让人觉得我很烦…
不再找邪教成员诉苦…
或许，我还有vivian and Irene..
但，我也学会了长大…

不断的说服自己…
不要在意被大家遗忘…
不要在意就算你把人家放在第一位，人家也会忘记你…
不要在意每个人的心人生计划中没有你…
不要在意…
人都会喜新厌旧，当生活圈子扩大时，
对，你能有自己更好的朋友，你能选择遗忘…
而我…
在已成为大家的负担时，
选择了放下…

放下对这段友谊的执著…
放下了对这段友谊的在乎…
放下了一切…
以平常心面对大家…

不断地提醒自己，不要犯众怒……
不要老是重复自己的错误……
让大家觉得你的感受其实是对大家的心灵压力…

其实，很羡慕有些人…
有时，甚至会问自己，
当你有心事时，你第一个找谁？
当你想哭的时候，你会哭给谁听？
当你有好东西想分享时，你第一个会告诉谁？
有时，觉得自己很悲哀…
我竟然找不到人诉苦…

习惯带着微笑的面具…
就连最亲的朋友面前也很难说出口…
习惯告诉自己要坚强…
甚至连自己都给蒙骗了…
习惯逃避…
就连自己也以为没事了…

life still goes on no matter what happen...who is around you....
没有朋友是一辈子…
friend 4eva不会在我的生活字典中出现…

所以，
我只是不断的说服自己，
陆宇盈，
你有的只有你自己……

well..
finally...i went skating...after 1 month of planning...yet...
it is nt hw is it...
wasted my time for waiting...
wasnt in mood in d earlier on..
Her mis-sending msg last night actually makes me down..haiz..

bt...i stil carry on v the actual plan..
went 2 Sunway....
act like normal..
yet..thgs are far more different...

yet accumulated feeling preassure me..
while i was waitin..
d feeling comes all over again...

i hate waiting...
bt, because of them..
i force myself to wait..

waited 4 alomost an hour..
phone to shan..
n burst into tears...
haiz..

it was no longer like before...
d feeling is totally diff with those days..
i feel "kekok"..
din really enjoy the skating..
din really enjoy d K..

luckily i stil hav Vivian v me..
accompany me for ice cream..
comfort me..
luv ya gal..

Lesson Learnt :
friends are there to share hapiness...bt nt bitterness..
i'm nw better in acting..
i'm nw better in protecting myself..

i've really grown up.....

L.O.S.T

Read her blog..found out tat i'm actually such annoying..making ppl fed up of me..she's one of my besties frm Matrik n we r even closer in Uni..yet,my words hurt her..later on her mistaken msg came..words cant describe my feeling..was in cinema n almost finishing d movie..thinking of stil hav time to join them for yumcha n meet up v cs..yet,after reading her msg,i dun even noe hw shud i face her..n i decided to continue another movie..thx2shan n hui teng..thx for willing to accompany me to go through my such annoying mood..thgs r different nw..i see her as my besties,so i pour all out to her..without thinkin anythg..yet,i'm jz too self centered,too selfish..forgotten tat ppl actually get bored whn d same issue is happening..i jz cant understand myself..y m i such persevering?wat does frens really mean to me?do i really die without them?Guess tat i shud really wake up..stop relying on frens..u r 20 nw..n u r able to manage ur self problem..u dun hav any listener..all u hav is urself..grow up..u r jz a pathetic,annoying,selfish person without any gd listener,without any1 holding on u..u r jz alone..

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK ?

Both Friends Will Think The Other Is Busy

And Will Not Contact
Thinking It May Be Disturbing
As Time Passes Both Will Think Let The OTher Contact
After That each Will Think Why I Should Contact First ?
Here Your Love Will Be Converted To Hate

Finally Without Contact The Memory Becomes Weak

They Forget Each Other.

So Keep In Touch With All
I Don`t Want To Be One Of This Kind.
So I am Here To say~
To Say
Dear Friend
I Am Fine Here
Please keep in touch with me

had a long chat v some of my friends last night...
i think..most of my close friends noe tat i was like havin a hard time bout frenship in my life..
as i see friends is the most important element in my life...
saw a blog post jz nw..
knowing tat there's a birthday gathering..
n..i hav no idea bout it...
at 1st i thought i'll b sad..
feeling tat i've really be forgotten...
bt...
surprisingly,i feel nothg...
so..
i started to think...
wat does fren mean to me nw...
n i found out..
time can makes some1 to b more mature...

I realize tat i can 看淡frenship...
keeping them in my heart n move on...
at least..
they gave me d strength..
x 2 b alone...
bt to move on alone...
we might nt been contact for quite some time..
bt...
thx...
thx for bein there whn i was in dillema..
thx for letting me noe ur r still there..
thx for the msgs ur semd...
thx for ur phone calss tat giv me d confidence i need...

thx my fren..
luv ur so much...