random...

wah....
it seems tat i've abandoned my blog for quite some time....
haha...
was busy enjoying my holiday b4 new sem start...haha...

went for my holiday at Bali...
n started my perkampungan SUKMUM...
it was a meaningful holiday to me...
^^

Bali Trip was ok..
it'll b my 1st n last time to go...
any photos??can go c my fb??hehe...

durin my holiday period,
my maid was takin her off..
so we did some house cores ourselves..
n..
i din put down weight at all..
indeed, i put ON WEIGHT pula...ish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n...
here comes perkampungan SUKMUM..
it was d best best training ever...
d only price we paid is....
getting darker and darker..
n of cz...my purse oso getting thinner and thinner..

bt..
it was a NO REGRET for joining SUKMUM..
especially bac 2 d 4th swimming team...^^
luv them alot..
i find bac d craziness durin singing K..
which makes me stil believe i can actually still enjoy singing,..,^^

n swimming training...
i cant really believe tat i actually swam backstroke, butterfly and free..
gosh~~
izzit true??
haha...although the process of training was like hell...
bt thn.....
drinking water really make us learn..
so..
peeps, if u really wanna swim, drink more chlorine water ya~
n u'll learn faster...^^
tis time SUKMUM i surely wont get any medal..
bt..
i really enjoy d training time...hehehe.,..
d most important is d process right?haha...

n..
here come the new sem..
which really really kill me...
saw the course content..
n...
most of them are related to Stat..
gosh!!!
i jz hate calculation..
it can really kill me,....
haiz....

anyway....
hopefully..
i can b as lucky as 1st sem...
at least a better result....hahaha~~
bless me^^

n...
i think i lost a fren..
we were so close..
bt nw..
thgs r jz all based on activity....
i regreted joining it...
n sorry for nt commiting anythg...

haizzzzz.....

a new start...

in few more days..
i'll b goin bac to KL..
n starting my new sem soon...

a brand new year..
a brand new start..and..
a brand new me...

tis time..
after wat i had been through my 3rd sem..
after the lesson bein taught...
i finally grow..

trying hard to think more for myself....(or being selfish i shud say so??)
trying hard to pretend...
trying hard to let go...

its still haunting me...
once, i took family and friends as the most important element in my life..
yet..thx to them..
it was totally a stupid joke nw...
my world was almost teared into two..
it even changed my believe..
thx...thx is d only word i can say..
tis time..
after tis night...
i'll let it go totally...

i'm nw a gd pretender as ur noe..
n i finally learn wat true friendship is ..
true friendship doesnt mean that they wil b v u everyday...
bt, they wil b there for u whenever u nid them...
n...i noe who r them right nw..
true friendship doesnt show that it'll b weird when everyone is quiet..
its jz a natural feel..tht u wont feel weird..


in another word..
in 1 more week, i'll b in d age of 21..
ok la..age only ma...nt real age..

new hope: i wont ask for frens forever...bt i'll ask for everlasting friendship..^^
and ~~
of cz..a better result..^6^

pls......
Control my weight ar~~
stop me frm eating ar~~~~
haha

3rd sem result

Keputusan ini belum muktamad dan adalah tertakluk kepada kelulusan Senat.

BIL	KOD SUBJEK	KETERANGAN	JAM KREDIT	GRED	MATA GRED
1	EEEE2101	PENGENALAN MATEMATIK UNTUK EKONOMI	3	A	12
2	EGEE2102	EKONOMI PEMBANGUNAN	3	A	12
3	EGEE2103	EKONOMI MALAYSIA	3	A	12
4	ESEE2201	STATISTIK II	3	B	9
5	EXEE2103	MIKROEKONOMI IIA	3	A	12
6	EXEE2107	PEMIKIRAN KRITIKAL DALAM EKONOMI	3	C	6

PNG : 3.5 PNGK : 3.44 KEPUTUSAN : LULUS CATATAN : -

gt my result...
wat a relief..
its nt as bad as i predicted..
phew..

is seems tat my theory is kinda correct...
last min work owez bear fruits..
hehe..

compare with my last sem..tis sem's result is much much better..

bt..
tis is dunno hw many times i asked myself..
wat if u did ur preparation for CT earlier..
wat if u do more excercise for stat?
wat if ....

bt..tat's wat i hav nw..
jz try my best next sem..
n pls..
miss loke..stop telling urself to start ur revision earlier..
bt on d other hand doin it late...ish ish,,,,

random...

haha...
it seems like i hav "abandoned" my blog fo quite some times..haha...
kinda lazy 2 blog..hehe..

there's nothg special happened tis few weeks..
attended Quan Bian's BORED camp..
i really hate working together v close frens..
n i dun really wanna recall bout it..
tis teached me a lesson..
never ever work together v the close ones..
n i'm glad tat i din joined Shan's PKB..

talking bout PKB..
I joined their donation drive..
compared v the last year's donation drive, i enjoy alot..
hehe..

The steamboat at Shabu One,
The kajang Satay..
it brings bac alot of memories..
it reminds me of i've been "young" before..
ya..
"young"..
although i'm nt tat old..
bt, d mentality is diff..
compared v my 1st year..
i miss 1st year...
bt..
those r past right?
wat we hav to do is looking to d future..
never look bac...^^

seeing hw the juniors ply..
their determination for an activity..
their stupid jokes..
i jz luv mixing v them..
especially whn eating stay v them.
i really laugh frm my heart..
i cant even remember when was d last time i had so much fun durin Uni time..
haha..
thx xiao didi..thx shan..
for bringing those feelings bac..haha

o ya..
guess wat??
i'm doin housework..
ya..
right..
housework..
haha..
my made went back for holiday...
n nw 3 of us n my mum r doin d housework...
n..
doin HOUSEWORK doesnt help me put down weight..
.ish....

n..got some of my result recently..
n i DIN FAILED STAT..
phew..
bt..
i made a promise...
n hopefully i can fulfilled it ya^6^

隐瞒vs决定权

每一次告诉自己
要放开、要放下、别计较、笑一笑…
然而，
一次又一次的隐瞒…
一次又一次的假装…
一次又一次的“谅解”…
都让我们失望透了…

怀疑自己是不是做错了…
怀疑自己是不是真的小气…
怀疑自己是不是如此的惹人厌…

谢谢你们的“谅解”…
谢谢你们的“体谅”…
谢谢你们的“体贴”…

除了这些我不晓得还有什么能够谢了~

然而，这些都不是我们所需要的…
我们要的是“决定权”…
不是霸道，而是想知道…

当你从别人口中知道了真相，
而且是属于你们一gang的东西时，
你的心情会是如何？

我承认，我感觉到我被嫌弃…
更替他们觉得委屈…因为我，他们也连带的被遗忘…
甚至于被责怪，原因就是太挺我…
挺我有错吗？

试问，
朋友在你们的定义是什么？
难道就真的是吃、喝、玩、乐吗？
那你的酸、甜、苦、辣要找谁分担呢？

那天看到了明明是最熟悉的你，
两天前还通过电话…
从家乡来到了KL,也没有通知…
对，没错，
你，
或许认为我们可以从他人口中知道你有回过来…
或许认为我们在忙着跑donation drive…
或许认为我们巧遇你了之后会主动联络你…
我们的心摇摇欲坠…
已经在经不起打击…
担心你给的借口…
逃避你给的理由…
胆怯你给的反应…
而你，
从头到尾都抱着鸵鸟心态的你
又再一次的让我们受伤了…
对你而言
一封信息很贵吗?
一封电话很难吗？
还是
是我们应该主动联络你们呢？
是我们应该面对你们的冷落？
是我们应该把问题解决好？

谢谢你们又再一次的
让我知道友谊真正的定义是什么…
谢谢你们又再一次的
在我们的伤口上撒盐…
谢谢你们又再一次的
提醒着我们原本以不当一回事的往事…

除了谢谢，还是谢谢……

其实，
真的没有必要隐瞒，
隐瞒所造成的伤害是你们不能想象的…
没错，
你们会认为我们我们敏感…
但，
将心比心，
如果有一天，我们原本是一大班的朋友
有了某个计划，而你就是被遗忘的那个…
如果某一天，大家都计划好了，最后一个才很敷衍的问你…
你的感受如何？

或许你们都不会有这样的经历…
因为你们还有彼此…
而我，却只有珊，Lobak 和Ah Xian…

你们一直一直强调着，
问题是在我们身上…
我们的敏感，
我们的小气，
我们的放不开，
让你们很为难…
然而
你们呢？
难道所有的问题就只是出在单方面吗？

决定权并不是因为我们霸道…
而是至少让我们知道我们
没有被遗弃，
没有被遗忘，
没有被排斥…

这小小的通知真的很辛苦吗？

看这原本聊天可以很直接的我们
竟然变得有所顾虑…
很尴尬…
很勉强…
甚至有时候你们对我们约你们的态度…
让我们觉得
我们真的很霸道、不讲理…

心真的很痛…

或许所有人都认为是我，是我们把友情看得太重了…
那……
如你们所愿，
陆宇盈已经不是你们所认识的陆宇盈了…
她的笑容，她的高调，她的欢乐已不属于大家了…

她不再坚持友谊是她的全部…
谢谢你们把她的信念给活生生的碾碎……
谢谢！！