A Letter to Myself

Dear Jee Yeng,

You have been through years of exams..
UPSR, PMR, SPM Matics Final, 4 Semester of Uni Finals..

Yo have came so far through all these exams..

SPM, the most important exam for your secondary time..
the exam that you took 11 subjects..
and you have went through the period...

Matrics Final, the most important final that determined your entrance to THE BEST LOCAL UNI in Malaysia..
And, you have went through it, and got a place in Universiti Malaya,
A prestigious university where I din even think that I am able to came in.

4 Semesters of Final in Universities...
4 times of Last Minute Work..

Every exam you are as stress as before..
you even make everyone near you stress..
you panic before entering the battle field..
you gave up before started to fight...
you give up hope and sending yourself negative spirit which is even depressing..

It's your fifth semester,
second last final of your University Life..

It's a time to change,
It's a time you have to start to relax, and just try your best..
it's not you din study..
it's not you must get a very good result..
it's not at all..

You only need to just study and just try your best..
stop being panic..
stop being stress..
You just try the best you could, and you at least wont feel sorry for yourself ..

Dear Jee Yeng,
Stay strong..
stay Tough...
Stay positive..
and tell yourselves, you can understand the question,
you understand what you are reading..
you know it..
stop scaring yourself..
stop it!!

It's time for a change...

all the Best in the coming 3 papers...


best regards,
Yeng..

I need A break

I need a Break..

To BREATH...

Stress about the Final I'm having now..

And I just dunno why..

I din aim High..

Mum even say result is not important.

And yet..

the piggy me..

who sees sleeping is more important than everything 

is insane thinking that 

sleeping much is guilty..

 wasting time on bed is a guilt..

argh!!

i just dunno what I want..

This Final is driving me crazy..

I act as I'm calm..

I'm ok with my preparation..

I still joke around..

I still go for meals...

I still take naps..

I still watch Glee..

I still Blog...

I still think I'm ok ..

But, turns out I"M NOT...

I'm stress..

tension and pressure..

and the funniest part is :

FOR NOTHING!!

 I have only a simple wish :

to just maintain my pointer..

yet..

it seems it's hard..

and I'm at the edge of pulling myself away from giving up..

It's as if there are two me in me~

One side of me telling me to work harder, as this your second last final..

One side of me telling me to relax, as no matter how much you score, you'll still be in the range of 

 SECOND CLASS UPPER..LOL

so what for study??

I'm struggling..

this exam phenomena,

notes around me..

the calender reminding me how long more my final will end is stressing me out!

argh!!

I need A break..

just to relax...

just to run away from these stuff..

All these things are making me more negative..

and I'm trying hard to hold my tears whenever I"m looking things that 

I gotta answer in the final...ARGH!!!

hate myself for N times...

hate the me behind my own mask..

pretending that i'm OK..

and I dun need anyone to hear my shout out of my stress...

 2 more STRESSFUL week to go..

Counting down...

gambateh, miss Loke...

Just try your best and you know you always have him and a bunch of great friends being at your back...

It's the second last final you will be sitting in your University study life....

Just "enjoy" to the fullest..

LOL...

ARGHHH~~

Shout out by :

brainless people who cant study smart and cant be determined to study hard..