(d day b4 cc trip)

11-9-2009

Wanted to blog..
bt there's no wifi in tis stupid college..purposely walk to d bus stop outside 4th alone jz to blog..
UM,so call d best uni in malaysia..
v d lousy maintenance,awful memories i had durin sharing room..
i wonder y they stil can say tat UM is one..

Wasnt in gd mood nw..thgs were all nt on my side after ptb

feel like crying..my tears r rolling in my eyes..
wiped it of,yet d feelings r comin again..
hate to b alone..hate d quietness whn there's no1 around me..

tonight i'm sleeping alone..HT went bac cz of her tooth pro,dunno wat happen to nik..
din really wanna talk to me bout 2 days dy..even wonder wat i've done to make her react like tis to me..giving excuse tat she's tired n x wanna join us4 sing k,on d other hand went sg wang..thn overnight at gui ying's place..
i bet she dun even wanna tell me @ d 1st place..n jz giving me d notification durin night time..i jz dun understand..
y all my friendship r so fragile..it jz disconnected so easily..n i really nid to learn to jz take it easy..dont take thgs such serious..
keep convincing myself tat there's really no true frens..nobody can really b there for u whn u nid them..

I'm really x in da mood of goin CC Trip..
none of my gang were goin..
there's only ah xian which can really accompany me..
asking me wat bout raymond n king fong?i bet they r surely busy entertaining forest..
There's only both of us..

Din really notice tat i'm such a "responsible" person..
jz bcz there's nobody goin,me as d committe in the board..shall join..
Paying Rm100 to fake my smile is kinda "good" price for me..

Recalling d list who r goin to d cc trip makes my mood even worst..
Hate goin to trip which i dun hav gang..

Even gave up d flight to Sabah last holiday jz bcz of no gang..d flight i've ady booked,d plan,d journey we hav planned..i can even give up..wat makes tis CC TRIP such important? wt*

Jz praying hard..hopefully i can get some fun..jz some..i din ask for more..i din expect i can really enjoy oso..

Lesson learnt:
Never say "Mostly" whn u r x sure..
Never take responsibility whn u cant commit..
Never believe in frens4eva..
Never ever beg ppl goin2 any places whn they hav ady decided for x goin..u r only wasting ur time!
Never make decisions that will make u regrets!

Life is bitter whn d progress of learning is indescribable v words..